Why dont i love school?
Because its a drama.
Where people i dislike,gather.
Don't you find it irritating to have enemies in the school?
Especially the really quiet ones,who stare but don't dare to stare properly.
Whatever for?
I did not enter the school having the intention to hate and to find trouble.
If i did,i would have probably become a minah by now and dropped to NT.
I came into primary school and secondary school for 2 reasons.
Firstly,to make friends and the next,to do the two national exams.
PSLE is over. Soon,O Levels will be over too.

I can't wait to get out of that damn school.
All the bitter memories will flashback easily.
I will always keep the sweet sweet memories forever in my heart...
Well,everybody loves secondary school.
Indeed i do too,but now,i just want to be free from that school.
I've always imagined myself being independent in the future.
Even my form teacher states that im an independent learner in my testimonial.
I want to do what i like and what i do best.
And that is Art related.
I am not neat and i find it most discouraging when people say that.
Saying that my art should be neater and stuffs.
Don't you realize how hurtful it is when you are very passionate about something and
you easily break my heart by saying just a few words?
I've been trying my best to do neat outlines and those shit.
I know i've forever been messy and disorganised,i feel its my specialty that nobody
is as messy as i am.
Everybody has their own flaws but i think this as an advantage.
I will show you bitches that messy people can succeed in life.

Another thing is that i take people around me seriously.
I sometimes question myself whether they do too.
Most of my friends love me for who i am.
Question is: Who Is Noor Usmah,really?
Truth is,I am hot headed,obnoxious and self-centered.
Well,i am also always hyper and happy.
Contradict much? Yeah.
I use humor as a way to hide my true self and it is the
only way for me to interact with people.
I make random jokes and silly noises just to make people adore me.
But this links back to the topic.
Does the people around me take me seriously as a person?
Be aware that i am human and i do have feelings.

Friends will know that i am more comfortable with the people i am close with and in cyber.
I don't know how to interact with boys.
I don't know how to make friends,unless they understand my "friendly" approach.
Some people find me appaling and disgusting.
Im used to that because in school or in the public,i let loose.
I let go of myself and not try to be someone i am not.
Joyous and lively,Usmah will always be Usmah.

Usmah is not religious.
I don't pray 5 times a day.
I don't go for religious class like my friends on the weekends.
I find it my most weakest point.
Tell me,who is proud of not being religious?
(Apart from non-believers)
I have faith in god.
I myself find it ghastly that my whole family seek assistance from god
only when something bad happens.
I need to start praying.
Its for my own good.

Well,conclusion?
I can't wait to venture and see what life has in store for me.
Although i am dissapointed with the pieces of bad news given to me,
i take it as a mere setback and i will live with it.
I will use every disadvantage as an advantage.
I will not end my life just because of it.
So friends,worry no more.

In case you're wondering,i'm trying to blog as much content as
possible until my laptop battery is low.
Its low now.
Goodbye!