My heart breaks.
I had always been an indecisive person all my life.
I let others choose before me.
But somehow,im hurt by that.
What really hurt me was
how i promised,how you promised,to love each other forever.
It's depressing,really.
Having to know you moved on,
somehow im jealous.
I moved on before but now,i dont know why,
i can't stop checking up on you.
I check your blog for new updates every 15 mins.
& when i do that,i reminisce about our past.
How it used to be so perfect.
I guess its really true.
Its over.
Syaza,where's SURF?i miss them,i miss you.
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Here's a song,of how sincere you were to me before.
The dedication you made during valentines day.
It also describes what im feeling now.
Here Without You-3 doors down.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me