ART ROCKS!
Of course,everybody has flaws in at least something.
Don't look down on my painting skills because i love the end result!
Would you like it if i look down on your sketching skills?
_|_!!

Order of events in pointform with pix.

SUBMISSION OF ART O LEVEL COURSEWORK:

SHOP FOR CONTACT LENSES AND HEAVY AYAM PENYET LUNCH:

RAYA OUTING WITH WLL:
Soon..

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FANTABULOUS DAY I MUST SAY.
Thanks friends and boyfriend for making my day.

Will not go to school tomorrow.
Will only come for the mock test Chem paper after school.
goodnight readers!

"The Mind Of A Girl In Her Teens Is Truly Unpredictable."
-Usmah

The Hills.
Heidi Montag showed me how to take control in relationships.
No matter how hurt when being in love,you must always make the right choice.
Never ever regret your decision because it won't do you any good.
When you really love someone,you must always be prepared to make sacrifices.
Consider what the other might feel over the littlest things so you know you can't be irrational.
There's alot more actually.

People had always noticed how easily hurt i am.
Im emotionally unstable,partly because of past events that had happened.
Come to think of it,i'm really always happy in school.
Its just that sometimes,individualism makes me go haywire.
I start thinking of the odd possibilities.
It makes me uncomfortable and insecure and i don't know why.

Watching F1 Rocks and i love Pharell Williams & Beyonce's performance!
PHARELL WILLIAMS IS SEXY BECAUSE HE LOOKS LIKE A HOT MALAY SINGAPOREAN!
No Doubt was great too!
WHAT I DONT UNDERSTAND IS THE PART WHERE JACKY CHEUNG COMES IN.
WTFUCK IS HE DOING?!?!?!?!
The more proper question would be "WHAT KIND OF CREATURE IS HE?!?!"
-_-

Bye.

CAMWHORE!!

I miss going out.
& I miss going out with the girl in the pic.
Haha!

ANYWAY.
Life's getting better for me.
Easy said,"I love life!!"
Boyfriend loves me. Hooray!
Friends loves me. Double hooray!
Family loves me. Triple hooray!

My blog song is about fucking girls and pussies.
Hope you like it.
^^

Sucha brainstorming day today with Ms Ang.
I need to study Chemistry but i want to go out and camwhore.
If you were me and there is only 26 days left to O Levels,would you go out and have fun?
No maybe the best answer but i truly can't be bothered today.
I want to relax and let out all my stress.
I feel that my mind is like *tak tenteram*.
Sleep? I can't sleep during the day.
TELL ME WHAT ARE THE OTHER OPTIONS?!

i swear i wanna go out today.
bye.

If you're THAT matured,you wouldn't have done those things to me & having the thoughts of continuing.

P.U.M.A.
Pepek Usmah Masuk Angin.
-.-?

I love today because its full of exciting events.
Thanks best friends for the cool day.
Every day in the bus is an adventure with Raudha.
Because there's so many weirrrrrrd people onboard.
=_=

Noone knows THE hidden intentions like Syaza & Nadd.
Thanks for noticing the things i've noticed.
See,i've got witnesses about your CLASSIC acts.
When i say something about a certain situation,please do check it out whether its real or not.
Don't assume that im just assuming wrongly.
I see what i see,i hear what i hear.
I know what i know.

Goodbye.

My 7 Apples are those at the front of my links.
And i have to declare.
They are the best ever friends i've ever got!
I love them to the center of the earth.
Every one of them.

Thank you for the matchmake for Pikachu,
Thanks for the card and thank you Fitri for the letter, ;)
AND THANK YOU FOR THE PLEASANT SURPRISE!!
:D

It hurts knowing that you're not affected by anything i say or do.
It makes me feel as though its a one sided love.
Is it?

Counselling made me feel really better.
Even my deepest thoughts like wanting to kill myself is exposed to him.
He kinda psycho-ed me into this kind of trance that allowed me to tell him everything.
Hahaha.
The MRI was cool. One hour,i have to stay really still in that tunnel-like machine.
It was really tiring.

After that,got me a hair cut at some salon.
I even thought of making myself a maroon-head.
Poly maybe?
Anyway,my haircut is really .........!!
I don't even know how to describe it.
Camwhore soon and will show you guys.

Gotta go study? Goodbye!

Dear Noor Usmah Nasiman, Thank you for your-email. As per request,
I have rescheduled your appointment. Below are your appointment details:

Date : 23 September 2009
Time : 11:00 AM
Venue : Diagnostic Imaging, Admission Lobby Level 1

Date : 23 September 2009
Time : 9:30 AM
Venue : Specialist Clinic K, Children's Tower Level 1
Doctor : Dr Ng Khoon Hock
Specialty : Psychiatry


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Yes,wish me luck,people.
Don't worry its not something that can kill me.
Its not a disease or some sick bullshit.
Its a matter of whether i'll turn suicidal or not in the future.
That is where the psychiatrist comes in.
And the diagnostic imaging?
Figure out yourself. ;)

Caught "The Ugly Truth" with my girls up there.
It was a fantastic movie and i must say Gerard Butler is one sexy sexy sexy dude.
Especially his smile,so intoxicating.
And the movie? The storyline was kinda weird but its a romantic story.
With full of ups and downs and you will get to know more about what the other sex is actually thinking.
^^

Goodbye!

"If he makes you think twice when speaking,
if he doesn't show any great appreciation about what he's got,
if there is no longer the sparks of love you have felt before,
if there is obvious lack of communication,

if you feel insecure in telling him everything,

if your heart is always telling you that you deserve someone better,
if there is no fun and thrill in the relationship,

if you know you love him but there's not intensity to it,
then you know something is really wrong."

Yes,something IS really wrong.
This relationship has been bothering me for quite some time now.
It disturbs me that i'm feeling this way.
& i should let you know how much i care and long for you.
I just need your commitment.

Got myself a cool dress and vest from brother.
Thanks!

Celebrated like normal.
A white chocolate cake with pizza hut served for lunch.
It's sweet sixteen and i thought it would be a better celebration.
This taught me one thing.
Always expect the unexpected.

2 of my 7 apples have not wished me yet.

Pfft.

Goodbye.

Sweet 16!

Ahh,the day that i've waited is here.
Why? Because im old enough to catch NC16 movies.Haha.
I've matured through the years. Do i look like a normal 16 year old lady? Hope so.
^^

Thanks Aqilah & Nadd & Yuin Ping & Haikal Syed & Torres
(A random foreigner from tagged;at least he WISHED) for the sincere wishes.
Im kinda down that people whom i love didn't wish me or wish me properly.
Read: IM PISSED.

Fucking motherfuckers,dont u know when it was your birthday,i will or i have messaged you

guys long stories and cool shit texts at midnight that shows that im sincere and i love you people?
Thanks ah friends. I've made so many friends this year and last year yet it seems so little.
Effort goes a looooooooooooooooong way.
Using hari raya as an excuse is not gonna make me even at least convinced.
What am i in all of your hearts?
A piece of junk that you throw and ignore?
Have a heart because im always trying to be happy with everybody despite my condition.
I feel like deleting all of my contacts in my phone cos its of no use.
Nobody remembers me.

Goodnight dickheaded pussy suckers!!!
Im gonna fuck your asses out with a fake dick in your dreams till you have phobias.
__
(Im over reacting,i know. Its just midnight birthday messages. -.-
I'm gonna see what's in store for me tomorrow.)

Look how much i've grown. ^^

I was mistaken.
This year is the WORST HARI RAYA EVER!
Why?
Because i went to ONE house,went back home and everybody slept.
Woke up,mom and dad said to go out again tomorrow because they are LAZY.
Nice excuse.
Hah,no wonder i have the same attributes.

I want to be lazy as fuck on my bday tomorrow and show them attitude.
Off to STUDY now.

P.S : I NEED ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS4!
Goodbye.

I love you,Faliq.

HARI RAYA x 80 !
Not much to say about it actually.
Just that my house has really changed since the last Raya.
My family is wearing white this year except for Sis & Family.
I also have blue which i will use on the outing with friends.
Ahh,i can't wait for that one. :D

I always dread the "forgiving" part.
Every year,i will always stutter and don't really know what to say.
Then,my whole family will start breaking into tears.
I start to do too and it will spoil all my make-up.
GAH. I know i'll cry again tomorrow.

Also,we plan to let go of Gerraway Islam today.
I dont want to see him die + i want him to RAYA with his family.
=_=

Conclusion: I think Hari Raya will be great this year,especially the 2nd day. Haha!

Goodbye &
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Kepada Semua Umat Islam Di Singapura!

I need to exercise.

Went to Geylang just now with Raudha and Yazlynn. Was late for buka and went straight to Arnold's to book seats.
The counter number shows 18 when we got the number 59!!! The person said to come back at 9 to eat there,we agreed.
While waiting, bought the infamous Dendeng and Char Kway. Saw a lot of humans we know of. Too lazy to list out who.
Then after much circling around the area,went back to Arnold's to have our dinner. Ate the 3 person meal which consists of 9 chicken!
Each of us had to eat 3 chicken! All of us were very very full after the dinner and found difficulties when walking.
Me & Raudha got ourselves corsets and that was it. Initially,i wanted to buy those types of indonesian necklaces.
But didn't find it. Ugh. Went back and reached home at 1 am. It's been a long time since i went back late!
Thanks my dear random barbies for the pleasant night out.
^^

He should understand that i take our relationship seriously.

Farrera Dopre will wear Contacts for the first time during Hari Raya with friends
because she hates how her specs covers her beady eyes.
[Dah kecik,nak kecikkan lagi! Mata buta jauh betol! (Myopia) -.-]

I can't wait for Raya this year. I don't even know why. Maybe because im all set?
Woohooooo! Geylang outing tomorrow. Yeszzaaa!
I'm gonna hunt for accessories!

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I found out that i am capable of studying in masses. I've always thought it was tough
for my brain to take in all the memory work and heavy load but i know that i can do
what my clever friends can do,even though i am certainly slow.
I used to give up easily as i've always felt that i can't do it.
People can say i can't make it but i know i can.

It just take steps at a time.
For starters,i must make an EXTRA effort in studying.
I've never done so,in my entire life.
For all of the exams i've experienced,
i've always taken it lightly,even major exams like PSLE & Prelims.
O Levels? This is the time. Time for a change.
I don't ever want to feel regretful of not studying for O's.
No more crying over my relationship,
no more concerning about what other people might think about me,
no more hating unnecessarily.
NO MORE.

Xoxo,
Noor Usmah.

I'm both an Extrovert and an Introvert.
& I love who i am!


(?!)

"You are unique.
So,why you wanna act like someone else?
Always be yourself!"

My newborn nephew Neil Aiman!
Adorable isn't he?


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"Accepting perfection as it is."
It really is a great line there.

I wanna have a positive mindset now.
No more crying,no more negativity,no more misunderstandings.
I'm just gonnabe the cheerful and bright Noor Usmah Binte Nasiman everyone used to know.
I am definitely gonna change for the better.

First things first,studies.
I realized i've been complacent to think that i already got in DPA and so no need to panic.
I really want to do my best in O Levels.
Next,family.
We're financially stable now. I am happy that everybody is happy.
I've been thinking about the negative side of having the whole family in the house.
The thing is,i really can't imagine myself without Adam. Heh.
I can't wait for Hari Raya.
Friends are always there for me. But i've always misunderstood their actions.
Claiming that they have bad intentions of some sort.
Its Ramadhan and so i don't want any conflicts.
In fact,I DONT WANT ANYMORE CONFLICTS UNTIL O LEVEL ENDS.
Because after this year,we're gonna separate and i will surely miss every single one of my friends.

Ahh,what am i blabbering about at 2 in the early morning.
Hari Raya CONFIRMED colours this year are White & Gold.
I got myself a non-tacky,non-stuffy kebaya and white heels.
Bag = Re-use.
The only thing left is accessories!
Gonna get em on Friday,i hope. Oh,i cant wait for my birthday cum nadd's birthday outing!
^^

Bye,gay-boys.