Just watched Nabil's blog.
The Kanye West's video performance was SO COOL!
Everyone was bouncing to the beats,
he was expressing himself in a large scale on stage.
Everything was niiiice.
I am indeed a big fan of him,even though some people
state his songs are bullshit.
I find em most interesting.
Ain and Nabil are my friends who supports him from his early records.
I absolutely love his heartbreak songs.
Cause im feeling the same way as he does.

Why are you doing this to me?What sin have i done?
The more you ignore me,the more i'll keep thinking about you.
You like to do this,i've experienced this before.
You like to hurt me,then meet me,then love me.
This ain't a laughing matter.
So stop laughing in your messages.
I told you i'm sensitive.
You're just purposely doing this to me.
Whatever,man.
I don't feel any connection anymore.
I don't feel you treat me as someone important in your life anymore.
I AM SAD,i swear.
But you ain't do nothing about it.

Bittersweet,you're gonnabe the death of me,
i don't want you,but i need you.
i love you and hate you at the very same time.

p.s: im content with all of my grades
in the recent tests.

Happy 26th month sweetheart.

I miss going out with these people & dearest.
I also miss having a hols.
Im having a fucking terrible headache.

):

I had an awesome time with tupai just now.
Just us tupai,celebrating Yazlynn birthday.
We went through the rain together.
Haha.
Ate at Al-Azhar then went to explore
Toh Yi mansions.
I swear there was alot of beautiful,exotic and mysterious
houses.
I want to stay in one.
Ugh,i was full of envy.
We were exploring deep and turned back after about 40 + houses.
We camwhored all the way.
Make sure you upload pics,Yazlynn..
Thanks Tupai.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Sister's family is back!
:D

Ahhh,
i saw a wasp's nest getting destroyed.
It was the worst feeling ever,even though we
wanted to get rid of that pest.
The wasp is trying to care and nurture its
newborns.
But with a single kick on the nest,
everything was destroyed.
The newborns fell to the hard cold floor,
in need of their parent.
Somehow, i feel it relates to me.
How just one incident can affect my future,
my whole entire life,my way of thinking about things.
The wasp,being wary of its surroundings,
sets off,in search for another spot.
The wasp looks calm and easy as he made his way
out of his so-called territory.
Can i breakfree and be as calm as it is?
) :

I saw a clear rainbow which brightened up my day.
I am now praying to god that it will be a better day for me,soon.

To Yazlynn : Hope you liked my small gift.
( :

I'm trying my best not to cry.

Happy birthday to you two asses!
(not able to find a pic of me and erman)

WARNING: THIS IS A LONG POST.
-_-


I was super active and happy today.
I don't know why though.
Had been laughing alot at school.
School rules! (Kental)

Yesterday,went to Vivo with Aqilah and Amalina.
Was kecoh-ing alot.
I stole a F21 bracelet which costs 13 bucks.
Wicked,man!
I didn't even realise it was on my hands.
I was barely trying it and forgot to put it back.
The alarm went off and nobody realised it,
that is what i call dumb!
Haha.

Im starting to love A maths lessons,
as it means revising on e maths for me.
I can see it benefit me alot.
Mother tongue is so draggy,i hate it the most.
PERIOD.
E maths is okay,since i have a basic foundation
on what is going to be learnt.
I hate english lessons.
I keep getting just-passes for all of
my short tests,and it irritates me when people
who writes short and simple,scored better.
UGH.
I have nothing to do in art lessons except to touch up on my 5
finished sketches.
So i kinda enjoy it.
I HATE SCIENCE.
It bothers me that i cannot and dont want to listen in class.
Even if i try to,i will still get occupied doing something else.
I keep staring at Mr Goh's butt and ears.
He has sexy big ears and has no butt.
That bothers me too.
Humans?
I like Social Studies as i have Miss Smarty Pants
beside me to guide and help me.
But Geog? Im sitting next to a guy who is emotionless.
I need guidance for geography,
im very weak in it since sec 1.

Enough about studies.
Lets talk about friendship.
Friends now understand me better and i love them for doing so.
I know i had not been the best of friend.
I am happy spending quality time with tupai and others.
But i just need anger management quick,
i get irritated so easily these days.
Don't mind me,people.
But if you mind,do tell.
Cause i know you mind cause i will mind if i were you.
Err..
oookay.

Relationship?
Well,i think its part of our plan to make it a secrecy.
We're superly duperly crazily stupidly messily madly sweetly
in love with each other,
even though people may not realise it.
Heehee.

Family?
Mom-quite ignorant.
Brother-somewhat caring to a certain extent.
Father-SUPER IGNORANT.
Sister-is pregnant with her third child!& super busy.
Done.

Here's an advance wish to both of my friends,
Yazlynn & Erman
a very happy birthday tomorrow!~

P.S : I feel WEIRD.

I guess we drifted apart.

Yesterday was the bomb with sweetheart.
We spent an absolutely romantic night at Fort Canning.
We went from Bugis to Town to Fort Canning then back home.
It was really adventurous,i went to a route which i didnt know of
to go to Fort Canning.
Sorry for making you tired..
Overall,there is only one message that i want to clearly state.
I LOVE YOU,BOYFRIEND!

Well,today was fun too!
I had an enjoyable time with tupai feat fitri and aizat andahmad.
We so called studied at Jurong Library.
I was finished with everything and played taiti with the guys.
I won 1 out of 4 games with them.
Bummer.
Yazlynn gave all of us this friendship band thingy.
It was sweet,thanks.
Ate LJS then went back home with Raudha and Fitri.
They planned to study but i disturbed them.
I was catering to their every needs.
haha.
Forced them to eat and they went back.

I had a long nice shower.
I feel refreshed than ever.
I'm super ready for school.
Art 5 sketches FINISHED.
Super happy.
:D

One word for all of you out there.
Hello?

Was going through Yazlynn's multiply in Indonesia.
See what i've got?
:D
I'm feeling squirmish (?)
Don't know if there is such a word.
I feel like hopping onto a water bed with beanie pillows,
and be squirmish.
Hahaha.

I miss boyfriend.
I miss him so much.
Only god knows how much i do.
I wanna cry on him.
I wnna him to share his problems to me.
I wanna encourage him to strive for his studies,
so that he can do anything he wants after that.
I wanna be a good gf who understands him very well.
I wanna hug him tightly and kiss my stress goodbye.

I want him to care for me,cause thats the only thing i need,
for now.
I love you.

Im sorry friends,if i had been a real bitchy-jerk these days.
You dont know what im feeling,
Im unsure myself!
FRUS.
&$*(!%^*!(^@$#*

Won't be blogging for awhile.

In a ): mood.

Take care readers.

Ugh,this blog is so dead.

memories?

hehehehehe.

boyfriend,i had a great time during Valentines.

i cant wait to meet you up again honey.

i syg u..

i love my best friends too.

they're a great bunch.

thanks for everything, guys,gals.

Happy friendship cum valentine's eve everybody!
Today was a great day.
I had fun throughout.
Those who never get anything from me,
im sorry okay?
Thanks to those who gave me a gift.
Appreciate it alot.
& bulu,i wanted to get you something.
Huahuahua.

Tomorrow Valentine's?
Hmm.

My posts are getting more and more boring,as you can see.
I'm just so moody these days.

I don't feel sorry for not blogging.
I dont expect anyone to read my blog anyway.
Come back soon and wait for me to say
"pics are in multiply!~'"
Cause i have not done so.

I just feel shittey this few days,
I don't feel good.
I feel comtemptuous.
I feel self-centered.
I feel that i want to be alone for quite some time now.
I swear.
& that is why i off my phone at night.
To keep me occupied with other things,
and not stuck on the phone texting you or others.

Studies stress me out.
):

Oh, and yes.
You're messages are a cock.
Valentine's a pussy.
Don't use your stupid,sarcastic words on me.
I won't entertain it.
You don't treat me like your special one anymore.

Isn't Adam Nazraoul the most cutest little thing?
:D

Today's a Saturday.
Not going out?
Nope.
Good,decent,pure.
Random junk.

I love friends.
THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.
I love 2 pies.
I treasure you guys much.
:D

People,stop emo-ing over guys.
I scratched my arms till i bleed?
Ugh.
Girls,you are more capable of other things.
Studies is waaaaaaay more important,for now.

p.s: i dont get you.

Today was fun.
VERY fun.
Brought camera to school and camwhored.
Pics will soon be uploaded in Multiply,
so look out for it.
Oh yeah,i got caught for being late.
Principal just cant stop lecturing us.
He even called our parents.
He was nagging like a mofo.

LSP :
Mr Adam: "That prefect over there,come over here~!"
Mr Adam looks at me,mesmerisingly as i run towards him.
Mr Adam:"Mark their attendance and hand this over to me by 3.30pm at Com Lab 3."
Usmah nods.
3.30pm,dismissed from LSP.
Usmah runs to Com Lab 3 & knocks on the door,excited.
Mr Adam comes out and looks me right in the eyes.
Mr Adam:"Okay,people who are absent,put abs."
Usmah shows him (she did put abs for the absentees already)
Mr Adam:"Alright,only one who did not go right?"
Usmah slightly nods.
Mr Adam:"Good."
Usmah melts like a wax candle.
-.-

Ive been silent-ing my phone these days.
I dont expect a message from anyone,anyway.
I wish i do get a message from someone some time soon...
Sighs,who am i kidding?
I miss you.

The sea = endless possibilities.

I guess its a temporary good bye?

First things first,i wanna congratulate my Sister for being pregnant!
We played name-for-the-baby yesterday.
If he was to be a guy,Adel Norman.
If she was to be a girl,Nyra Arlyana.
Cool-cool.

Well,Its my so-called one month with him today.
I don't wanna blog about what happened today.
I just love this song Raudha brought up.
Scroll down for lyrics.

I do love you.
I trust that you do love me too,baby.
But i can't help to feel the hurt & pain.
Thanks GirlFriends for caring so much.
Homework not done.

Unappreciated : Cherish


I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 1:]Woke up this morning and saw your face
And you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see,
Where you want to be.
And lately it ain't been the same at all.
When you're here its like I'm invisible
I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.
Cause I'm feeling

[Chorus:]I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 2:]Lately our house is not a home
You come in, take a shower and then say I'm gone.
What am I to do
When my heart says leave
But my feet won't move
And today is our anniversary.
And you haven't even said two words to me
I'm trying hard to give you another chance
But ooh baby I'm feeling

I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 3:]Oh when I first met you
I thought you was the most perfect man
That I ever seen
I still don't understand why
You treat me like you do
I use to give into your lies
But now I see the truth
Oh no I don't want to hear it I'm through
Yea I know I'll still be missing you
But it's not worth the pain
That I've gained from you
You make me feel Unappreciated

[Chorus:]I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,Feeling unappreciated.
Don't love me no more
Heeey wooo hooo
I'm really feeling unappreciated.
I'm feeling unappreciated.


p.s: Valentine's coming....

I am not looking forward to "after-school" lepaks currently.
I will now be a good girl and go back early often.
I am moody,because of some things.
I dont know why i am so quiet.
I really dont know.

Why am i so pathetic?
Can somebody bloody tell me?
These kinda things always happen.
Im Sec 4 now,O levels are far way important.
I guess i just have to live with it for another 10 months.
All i can say was that today was a very down and moody day for me.
But i had fun during Art & going back home & going to lot one & eating with Aqilah.

I miss Syaza Ruziani Binte Ahmad Ruzizad & the old Nadheera Begum Bte Rafie somehow...
):

what is wrong with me?


I CANT DEAL WITH ANYMORE OF THIS BULLSHIT,
BOYFRIEND!
You're going to see me quiet than ever,people.
Im in despair.

Am i really this happy?
Or am i faking it?
Why am i so unsure of my feelings about life?
I can't say im unhappy cause im not.
I can't say im happy cause im not so.
I can only say my life is a mix of feelings.
But most of the time,im happy,
i assure you that,readers.
:D

Went out with Raudha,Amalina,Amira,Zafirah,Atiqah,Pozy,Aliff,Tir.
Had a wonderful-cam-whoring time with theeem.
Watched Chingay from far for awhile.
I wonder why we _____ dont have this.
Ugh,im starting to hate Singapore.
I am no longer patriotic.

I wanna go out with you guys again,soon.
+ the others.

Im sorry dear.
I do wanna go out with you.
):

PICS ON MULTIPLY.
go check em out!