To you ;
That is the exact reason why i HAD to say goodbye.
& i want to say it again,to make it clear to you now.
Goodbye.
I wished you never existed in my life,ever.
I swear on that.
Never will i disturb you again.

Do take your time to read this,readers :

Sister kept saying go for the "average guy".
But you know what?
After this downfall of mine,i want to aim higher.
I'll set my eyes on VERY desirable guys now.
Not that i want to,but if i'm going to start loving again,i would go for them.
Indeed,i'm sounding very obnoxious and self-centred right now.
The fact is,who the hell cares?
I am like any other human.
Looks are important.
Let me give you examples.
Why is it when i look around me, "average" guys are dating "hot" girls?
Why are girls,for example,most of my friends,
trying their best to lose weight by jogging and dieting?
Why do most wives have husbands who do not stay faithful & mingle around
with women aged 20-30 years younger than them?
There's only one clear reason.
Because guys want girls who are hot,sexy and beautiful.
While all the other chicks who are "average-looking" who have
great personalities are left in the dust bin.
Do you think its fair?!
AHAHA.
C'mon lah,jerks.
Most girls have given up on boy-girl relationship
and become butches and lesbians.
& even that,guys laugh at them for being "freaks" of nature.
Are you stupid?!
I believe they experienced unrequited love before and that led them to be like that.
So stop acting like assholes!
If there is a guy out there who is sincere and understanding
to prove to me that there is an existence of such thing called
"Gentlemen" in this world,give SickLapDance a tag.
But until then,i do not believe in a thing called love anymore.
Guys,girls,whoever,do tag too and say out what you think about this rancorous post of mine.
Will not blog until Monday night.
Goodbye.

Nothing much to say,
just 2 things which happened that sums up my day.



6 hours of excruciating mother tongue lectures/remedials
&
Butter chicken masala for late lunch with friends at Al-Azhar.



I am tired and bloated.
I had a square meal,and now,i'm going to study.
Goodbye.
^^

You are my secret CrushCrushCrush!

Although my mum did not pat on my back as i thought she would,she still gave me praise.
What surprises me most is that my form teacher did not have anything bad to say about me!
She claimed i was in the healthier side of the class and need not worry so much.
The meeting ended within 5 minutes! While the others took about 15-45 minutes?!
Well,my results aren't THAT good. I still need to buck up,alot.
I have 1 A2,2 B4's & 2 C6's.
Feel that there's no wrong on being ashamed of telling people about my marks even though its sucky.
Found out that i got the highest for english in the class.
Cool shytes & i really want to thank my blog because it really helped me alot in improving my english.

Had art after the meeting.
Whenever i do art,i feel that i am focused like ****.
I don't care about my surroundings and hate to be disturbed.
I really hope to finish it by the end of July.
Had a great time with sexy friends and laughed about the jokes in the random video.
I like to recommend stuffs to my friends!

Oh yeah,Nabil,let's strive to become POLITICIANS!
Graphic Designer as Part-Time Job?
Great,both of my favourite subjects.
English and Art!
I'm really thinking about my future now.
Hmmm.

FYI,I saw your report book.
I swear,me and nadd was surprised like shit.
O levels are tougher than this.
You better think carefully whether you want to
be successful or not in the future.
Tsktsk.

Oh,Aqilah,i miss you.
I wanted to hug when you cried just now,but...
Idk.
I'm sorry if i hurt you in alot of ways these days.
):

I feel that im humble when it comes to love.
(?)

The mafia crips sign.

Mom will follow me to school for parent's teachers meeting.
Well,my mum hardly scold me when it comes to my results.
As long as i don't fail anything,she will pat on my back.
She doesn't realise that my O level depends on
how GOOD my grades are and not how many subjects i can pass.
I am the one who will scold myself for doing so badly.
Haiyoyo,my mother is so cute.
Like bergedel.
-.-

I will be taking my Malay Language Ordinary Levels on 1st june.
It maybe named Ordinary but it will be hard & i pray that i will not screw up.
Oh i hate the pressure when i sit in the hall and doing my papers.
I will keep turning my head to my left and right and see other people doing their work.
& when i see them doing faster than me,i will start to panic.
I will shiver and be a nervouswreck.
I hate when that happens,especially if it happens when im doing my O's!
I need to learn how to relax.
Any tips,readers?
:/

I realised i've hurt mum alot.
I'm sorry if i'm so pampered.
I'm sorry if i'm so disrespectful.
I'm sorry that i just went out of the house without saying goodbye.
I had a bad bad day today.
I know its because of what i did to you.
Sorry & i love you!

A man came to the Prophet and said,
‘O Messenger of God! Who among the people is the most worthy of my good companionship?
The Prophet said: Your mother.
The man said, ‘Then who?'
The Prophet said: Then your mother.
The man further asked, ‘Then who?'
The Prophet said: Then your mother.
The man asked again, ‘Then who?'
The Prophet said: Then your father.
(Bukhari, Muslim).

Broken Strings lyrics
By : James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again


I love to sing the song,i don't know why.
Hahahaha.
I am pretty much bored like fcuk now.
School today was indescribably boring,i swear.
Sorry friends for making you wait while i did my art.
I love you rockers!
Oh yeah,been repeating this sentence for a lot of times today.
"Hey,im William and i sell duct tape from door to door. Do you need duct tape? FUCK YEAH."
*Video below.

I sing,dance and act.
Ain't i multi-talented?
Yes i am.
(Confidence regained)

Here are the specific videos for people who are
searching for the videos which i found really funny and keep repeating its jokes.
Some people are entertained but some are not.
It really depends on the person.
Enjoy & ByeBey.

3 Guys Named Adam (According to age) :

Adam Nazraoul

Adam Lambert

Adam Ahmad

Adam x3 !
They have a very huge age gap.
Cool.
I love them,i swear.
I'm doing facebook quizzes.
Here are some random ones.

Dream Revealer :

Falling Dream

The falling dream is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. You are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life. This may reflect the way you feel in your relationship or in your work environment. You have lost your foothold and can not hang on or keep up with the hustle and bustle of daily life. When you fall, there is nothing that you can hold on to. You more or less are forced toward this downward motion without any control. This lost of control may parallel a waking situation in your life.


Personality test :

Funny/Clown Personality Type

You relate to people with laughter. When you make friends, you crack a joke, if you're feeling insecure, you make fun of yourself before anyone else does, and when your date is laughing non-stop, you feel like you've made a good impression. You like having an audience. Humor is your greatest and most prominent gift.


Love personality test :

Long Term Lover

Are you the perfect girl or what? Maybe you're a little shy or lack the dazzling appeal of the Alpha Woman, but when boys get to know you they'll discover the gold deep down. Your love personality is the most likely to find true love and romance, and when you're a little older you'll be much in demand because men will want to hang on to you. Expect a long-term marriage with an adoring husband. Did I mention that you're a great mate too? And an old-round fabulous person to know.

Cool crap.
I love personality tests and discovering more about myself.
It gives me a slight encouragement to do better,somehow.
I feel just so relaxed today at home.
I need more panadol.
My head is cracking up again.
Goodbye Read-Ers.

I dare not say anything.
I want to.
But i dare not.
Bye.

I HATE IT WHEN I CRY.
My face looks horrible.
Here is me crying when facing my biggest fears.

You guessed it,i cried in this picture because im on the 30th floor!
It was hard for me to look down,but i challenged myself to do so.
So i did but later cried.

Well,i am experiencing a slight dilemma.
I am overactive these few days yet i feel silently hurt.
Why is that so?
I feel life is perfect just the way it is.
But somehow i can't help but to feel this certain burn in my heart.
It stings so much.

"Forgotten my way home
Forgotten everything that I know
Every day a false start
And it burns my heart"

I don't know why but i am really not concerned that....

next week is O level Mother Tongue paper
plus
there will be a some sort of mock paper tomorrow.

I am eating BBQ Cheesy Chix from pizza hut while most of my friends are studying.
Just feel that i will NEVER pass malay with flying colours
no matter how hard i try because its my fault i did not give my
full attention during mt classes since primary school.
I want to end it by doing well for the coming week
so that i don't have to retake in october/november.
Unfortunately,it just seem so impossible to me.
I know i have to be independent in my own learning but i can't do it alone.
Malay is my worst subject ever,so i need guidance in order for me to pass really well.
I just need a B3.
God,please give me strength.

p.s: im getting sick of disney channel's teen celebrities.
you guys know what i mean.

Okay,i was bored yesterday night.
Being a random person i am,i looked up on youtube "random".
I found a video title which attracted me.
"The most random video on youtube ever!"
I watched it and damn it was FREAKING RANDOM.
I laughed from part 1 to part 10.
Mom said i've gone bonkers.
You should go watch it,readers.
I give it a 10/10 for randomness and lameness.
HAHAHA.
YAY SUPERED86!
Click link below to see.
^^


Okay,i want to watch some other random videos.
Bey!
-.-

Thanks for the comfort and for accompanying me to unwind at starbucks,
Aqilah,Ain,Felix.
We webcammed with ain's foreigner friends & she got temporary "chicken pox".
HAHA.
:D



( *= missing letters)
***** love me love ***** love ****** love (whoever fuck she's in love with).
Hmm,i found out a love line.
Well,i gotta say this because im fucked up right this very second.

I am a very simple type of girl.
I don't ask for pitiness or sympathy.
I just need a whole lotta love.
If i have to beg to get it,no way will i do it.
I am not your **** ******!
I am your average girl who has fallen for you!
& no,i will not change the way i am because i'm ME.
You don't even know that im trying.
What for must i try on a person like you?
Because i accidentally have a crush on you.
Why the fuck is it you?
I dunno you fucking ask your fucking self.
Why am i swearing a lot?
Because im fucking sick and tired of getting fucking hurt.
Look for the heart,fucker.
HEART.
You ain't gonna kill me,
you're actually making me stronger.
You piece of motherfucking shit ass.
I love you.

Usmah oh usmah,
its time for you to study.
Don't get yourself fucked up by love.
Currently listening to Kanye West songs at my Ipod.
(Maximum volume)

Oh,SYAZA GAVE ME BIG,HOT NEWS.
QUEEN IS PONDERING ADAM TO BECOME LEAD SINGER IN THEIR GROUP!
HOW AWESOME!!!

I AM BORED.
TOWN,VIVO,ANYWHERE, ANYONE?!


Im sorry but i just have to stop dreaming that it will turn into reality.
All my wishes never come true.
I give up.
I don't know who she is but i will be real envious of her.
Best of luck and hope you're happy.
Farrera Dopre loves you.

I was woken up by my mother,suddenly.
She was shouting things like "si hitam tu keluar cage!".
In english it means black is out of its cage! HAHAHA.
I searched all over the house trying to find Gerraway.
Finally found him resting below my couch.
He was stretched very comfortably and lying down on the floor.
He's so cute.
I'm concerned if he's let loose in the house.
So,i ran and ran trying to catch him.
I then tried it in a more gentle way.
When i found him,i pet him and he stayed still.
I then used a book and guided him to his cage from behind.
He then jumped in the cage on his own!
Awww.

Well,animals have feelings like humans too.
When they are treated cruelly,they will react in an abrupt manner.
When they are treated finically,they will react in a gentle manner.
I have a feeble morale.
I don't like to show my weakness,but i just AM.
Don't hurt me,please.
Please?

I'm feeling abit queasy today.
Blog songs updated.
Enjoy!
From your girl,Bbey-once.

Todaytodaytoday.
I lovelovelove.
My luck twistedtwistedtwisted.
I had a good daydayday.

Cried with friends just now.
Shared our dislikes with each other through paper.
Now i know how they really think of me deep inside their heart.
Thank you galang gals. (LOL)
Love each one of you like a chicken loves its egg.
Oh & not forgetting my 4e3 lovely girlfriends.
You people rock ma life!

Well,know what?
I started my composition on canvas today.
Received canvas and started work almost immediately.
Delighted because i finished drawing it in only one day.
Left with colour schemes and i will then start with painting.
Jeng x3.

I "chop" Raudha to teach me malay tmr.
Extremely dissapointed with my "just-pass" result.
Please improve me,i will try to have a better attitude when studying malay.
Oh yeah,i'm going to treat myself a wallet (possibly Mango)
as to celebrate my all round passes for my common tests!
Yay!

I just feel so lazy to blog today.
I'm listless and sluggish.
Tired,basically.

To whom it may concern:

Amalina,i am dissapointed.
Hold on and try harder.
I am sorry that i gave you that look which makes you cry.
Prove to people you can do it.
The next time we go study,i'll ask you out
& i'll make sure you really study and understand.

Aqilah & Syaza,nasi sudah menjadi bubur.
Don't cry over your results.
I know its heartbreaking but you yourself must work hard.
If you are working hard,work harder.
O levels is not going to be easy.
You guys are cleverer than me,remember?

Who else is crying?
I may not be the best listener,but i try to be a good friend
and somewhat a good advisor?
^^
Peace out!

"Adam deserves this. I'm sorry, I don't even know what to feel right now. This is crazy,"
By Winner.

"Kris won because he's a great artist and I was happy to be runner-up to that,"
By Runner-up.

Watched the finals in school.
Pestered the auntie to change the school tv channel to channel 5.
She finally did and found out Kris Allen won.
Tears streamed down my cheeks almost immediately.
I swear i was dissapointed and pissed off.
I reacted very abruptly and started to swear a lot.
Adam Lambert is truly one of my favorite contestants EVER.
I can't get it over with,really!!
All i can say is good luck to you,Adam.
You are really my idol,because you can really fucking sing.
It's hard for me to say this but,congrats Kris Allen.
I can't believe American Idol has ended,after those nights of
intriguing and addictive performances by Adam Lambert.

"Lambert did a better job with "No Boundaries" and excelled on his reprise of "Mad World" and on "A Change is Gonna Come."
By Critics.

"That was the best I've ever heard you sing -- ever!" exclaimed Abdul.
But it wasn't good enough for "American Idol" voters.
(Information from Yahoo TV)
~


Anyway,i was pissed off the whole day.
Mostly because of my results for common and a lot of other reasons.
I passed all the tests,thankfully.
Mostly C's & maybe B's & 1 A.
I guess when i receive back my report slips,it will be a huge wake up call for me.
I had been working hard,but its not enough for O's!
I had a bad day and it was worse for me when other people just had to
RUB IT IN & make my day WORSER.
I've had it with you and sarcasms and FUCKED UP faces you make.
You just NEVER learn don't you?
You just HAVE to ruin my day huh?!
Patience...

I don't know,i just feel insecure.
I feel that everybody hates me now.
Sorry,but i was having a really bad day.

Amma oh lina.
Do you know how much i miss you?
Nope,because i don't show it to you that much.
I am truly sorry.
Our friendship had really decree to a certain level
where we hardly talk and i don't want it to be this way.
I want us to be like before,but its hard.
I'm sure you know why.
It's really crazy sometimes when i think i have the whole
world to myself but i didn't realise i left someone behind.
Its been a long time since we BOTH had a good laugh together.
I miss those times lah girl.
You've been pestering me to go to WCP dulu right?
Someday okay. Soon i guess!
I love you,babe.
:D

To those idiotic "macam pahams":
Don't use a lot of words just to complicate what you're trying to say.
Because its stupid,especially if it doesn't make any sense.
Please and thank you.

Goodnight soul searchers!~

Based on the pictures,you know what i'm going to post about.
Whenever i see you guys,i feel like asking you guys out for lunch or something.
Especially Fish & Co and Swensens.
Because i miss you people.
I absolutely HATE losing friends.
& the thought of reminiscing the moments with my past cliques breaks me down.
I love every single one of them,even those in primary school.
Do you know how much pain it is to see your old friends having new friends?
I miss being me.
I changed alot,i must say.
Oh,i miss people being not so concerned about their looks.
Well,EVERY SINGLE friend of mine are concerned about their looks.
Sadly even i am.

Today,i got my marks for Maths & Chemistry.
53% & 67% respectively.
I am dissapointed,i knew i could do better!
I know it was all my efforts of sacrificing my hours of sleep,relaxation & play time
helped me to get a pass.
I am very concerned for my combined humans & physics.
God,i hope i don't flunk any paper.

Nope,Love can wait.
Or maybe Love can bygone for a long period.
I don't care.
School is not about attracting the other sex and finding love.
It's about studying,mofuckers.
STUDYING.

Watching American Idol now.
Adam Lambert is sexy as fuck.
Terrific comments from the judges!
He's gonna win tomorrow.

Will post again later,in the early morning,if i want to.
;)

Yesterday is like so bored,meowwww.
meow meow meow.
I always post nonsense in the early morning.
Well,love comes back to me.
Somebody seems to want me ,but his ego controlled him.
One thing for anybody reading this : if you love somebody, just let the person know.
It will make things slightly more easier and faster.
Anyway,i really am clueless about tomorrow.
Like what the hell am i supposed to go to school for?
Is there studying or checking marks of our mid years or act like baboons?
I think the last option is the answer,cause i always act like a baboon in school
no matter what the occasion is.
Its 12:25am and i have to wake up at 5:30am.
You work the maths.
How many hours do i sleep in a day?
Very little.
No wonder my eyebags are getting more and more obvious.
All i need is a boyfriend who will bother to message me a sweet goodnight message.
Okay,whatever.
I think i will go to sleep,MOM IS NAGGING!
Goodnight and sweet tight jake long's apprentices!(?)
^^

p.s: to all those who are uptight about things,try to LOOSEN up abit!

I want this badly.
Mom? Dad? Anyone?!
AHHHHH!

I woke up and i miss this boy like fuck,i swear.
Adam Nazraoul!
I MISS YOU!

I spent the whole day with them!
I love you guys,do you know that?
:D

Okay,went to school at 1015.Had art lesson which surprisingly ended quite fast.
Finished 3/4 of my composition thanks to Mrs Karen Mitchell.
Ms Tan ordered my canvas and she asked me to paint!
I was worried as my painting skills ain't that good.
Then,taxi-ed to Lot One to have Banmian for lunch.
It was super delicious!
Saw Mdm Nerwati and some other primary school teachers.
She was really surprised and glad to see me.
She could even remember my name and she hardly changed!

Talked about Boys Over Flowers and quarelled with each other
about who will be Joon Pyo (Lee Min Ho).
Ain got the title of the leader.
Next,Aqilah which was Yoon Ji Hoo (Kim Hyun Joong)
Then,So Yi Jung (Kim Bum), Syaza.
Last was me,Song Woo Bin (Kim Joon).
They call me the "yo yo" guy because im yo yo-ish in the story.
All of them are hot except me!
HAHA.
Thus,girls over flowers were formed. -.-

Sudden thought of watching a movie and we actually did.
Saw Haziq,Erman & Janaadan and they watched the same thing.
We watched Angels & Demons,and i swear it was really worth it!
Before the movie,saw a trailer of OBSESSED.
Cast consists of Beyonce Knowles!
It will come out on 23rd July and i can't wait.
Will definitely watch it.

At the starting of the movie, i was like WHAT THE FUCKING TITS?!
Then,i guided Syaza about the story and we helped each other if in doubt.
I was content and satisfied that i understood the movie.
Laughed at alot of things throughout.
Especially about Tom Hanks becoming the leader pope?
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
There was also this pungent smell in a distance away from us,
we guessed it was from Janaadan but actually it came from Haziq's feet.Loll.
Then,went back.
^^

I'm sorry i didn't meet you,gang.
Oh and i miss you,Fitri.
When was the last time i talked to you?
):

Right : Govinder G

Its 1:19am now.
School starts late (1015) tmr.
I am wide awake,not able to sleep in any way.
Govinder G,however,is oddly staring into my eyes.
I am scared just like the person beside him.
I think its his red-ness that makes him terrifying.

Okay,ask me a basic question readers
& i'll bet you guys will ask "What are you doing?"
I AM FREAKING BORED,WHAT DO YOU THINK IM DOING?
Heh,im just relaxing one corner ah,aboden.
No,literally i am at one corner of my bed typing nonsensical stuffs in my blog.
Hmmm,nonsensical. I kind of remember where i got the word from..

Life has been wonderful.
Spoiling people's mood,irritating people,shouting and screaming at home.
Yeah,all for the fun of it.
Sometimes i see my neighbours walk pass my house and stare inside where
im singing my hearts out and shaking my booty.
Kind of embarrasing but oh well,i guess they live through the years with me
and my brother's strange antiques.

Friends rocks my cocks.
They make me understand how love is supposed to be like.
They make me understand how true friends should be like.
They make me understand how things will not always go your way.
I appreciate that.

Lets jump to another topic shall we..
Where will i find my true love?
Will i really find my true love from marsiling (facebook quiz)?
-__-
I guess its too early to think about TRUE love.
I believe Puppy love is the love secondary students are experiencing.
Tell me what is the probability of you getting far better guys out there
after you graduate from secondary school than the one you're with now?
Infinite,i tell you.
& you will get married like,what?,6-10 years from now?
I don't believe in True Love,just yet.

Well,anyway.
Zye gave me a website.
Its hecka funny & hope you guys are entertained by the following pictures.
Goodnight sexy hummingbirds!~

Watching screwed at HBO.
FUCKING FUNNY.
Bye.

I dreamt of you last night.
If only you knew...

I always fall for the wrong type of guys.
But my heart over here is the one who decides.
I always have this feeling that the person is the perfect one,
but we will never be together.
Why is that so?
Could it be that guys nowadays go for girls only for their
LBBB(looks,body,butt,boobs)?
I can't believe some girls out there will post their semi-nude/nude
fucked up pictures on the web just to attract guys attention.
That is just so wrong.
People should just love women just the way they are.
Every girl deserves to be loved.
All girls just want to be loved.
I'm one of them.

So yeah,guys should appreciate girls more.
If you're a guy and reading this shit,
just stop,think & realise for a minute about those who really care about you.
& those who would do anything just for your sake.
):

Goodbye.

"Love is so blind it feels right when its wrong."

This is what i call "Minah-minah kepit pergi toilet pakai singlet."
Actually there are a lot of other pictures which are R21.
Repeat : R21 !
:S
*Before swimming.*




I hate the side effects of swimming.
I will always have a red shiny nose and my eyes will get all small and red too.
*At Chinese Garden after Swimming.*


Thank you girlfyes for the fantastic day & night out!

Random picture with my twin.

Happy Birthday Aisyeek!
I can't sleep and im turning into a wild horny tiger.
Especially after watching American Pie 2.
Rawr.
Beware.
This blog is called sicklapdance for a reason.
*Twinkle eyes*