Hard fuck.
Fuck hard.

I'm going to flunk malay.
I can't believe my memory was that bad.
I can't believe everything i studied just went down the drain.
All the efforts!
Ugh.

It made me realise how tough malay is.
Some people might say
"NOW then want to study hard?"
Tsktsk.
Its my fault.
I should have taken malay seriously a long time ago.

Dissapointed with self.
Goodbye,readers.

Studied like siao already lorrr.
Later like siao cowsxz..
Tomolow malay prelim lehx.
Still got time to blog.
Wah lan ehhh.
Juz now got e maths and english test lohhh.
Hard siolsxz.
Fuck laaaaaaah.
Wish me luck lehs.

Don't mind my english people.
Hahaha!
Goodbye..

Cereal prawns! Clapx3.
Cereal prawns! Clapx3.
Gooooooo Cereal prawns!!

Like finally?
Ate Cereal Prawns with friends + Sambal Kangkong.
Looks like they were forced to spend their money on this as they dont want me to be moody.
Awwww..Im sorry.But i really dont mind.
Thanks anyway. Appreciate it alot.

Got to go now.
Chow Mr Chow!
:D

I love today!
Although i was late for school and had to give my ez link to the prefects
until now,i still have not received back my ez link which sucks because
i have forgotten to take from Ms. Siti who was a random teacher to collect
ez links from people,but okay,fair enough.

School was okay until Mdm Rosnah made me cry.
I studied hard,but its just that i cant study very hard.
I seem to lose focus everytime?
Its hard,as i am not used to studying as tedious as this.
Don't compare me to Devy can?
She is waaaaay more hardworking than i am.
I can't do as well as her.
So stop lecturing me,because i know i suck at Geography.
Ugh.
*Scored 6/25 for Geography test*

English sucked too.
Kena lecture one kind.
Malay also.
Haiyaaaaa.
Lecture,nag all you want.
All i know is that im trying my very BEST.

After school was when the fun part came in.
I had a fun time studying with babes.
I was determined to study real hard for geog for the upcoming common test.
Played a game for a short while after studying.
Its called "Spider" or some sort.
The game where you step on a person's feet in order to win and each
person get to move only 3 steps in a turn?
Childish,yes,but fun nonetheless.

Went on to Macdonalds.
Ate McWings.
Compared the chicken in macdonalds and kfc.
It seems that the chicken is healthier in Mac than Kfc.
Random actually.
After eating,had a little girl talk cum table talk cum gossip conversation!
Immediately,all my stress were gone.
Had a great time literally laughing my asses off with my girls.
You girls rock my wok! (?)

They are getting on our nerves,really.

i miss those times going out with the regulars..
):


2nd post

eating pizzahutty, currently.
mum was stingy and asked me to fork out 10 bucks
& so i did and it was satisfactory.
im eating the sweet and spicy drumlets which i longed.
yum!

studying geography in the living room sucks.
but its good that the weather; changed for the better.
(eh,rhyme.-.-)

tomorrow is late day and im happy.
i dont want school.
oh,look,im complaining again.
ive been complaining alot.
i like to swear alot too.
what has gotten into me?


i've turned into a complete mother-fucking BIATCH without even realising it.

I need to believe in myself.
The past won't affect me,now or in the future.
Fuck setbacks.


"So take a step back
And a breath in
Let it out now
Put your chin up
You can do it tiger
You a lady now
And in your dream it's time to do the best you can now

So break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
Shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it"

I miss going out on weekends.
But nonetheless i have to sacrifice it in sake of my future which is to study.
I'm at loss in what to study right now.
I need guidance,i need a new tutor.
I guess i have to make my own timetable,for my own personal use.
The talks i had just now was not that beneficial.
I still am not very sure of what course i am going to take.
I do have the passion but do i have the capabilities?
I think of my financial difficulties if i go to an arts school.
I think of how well i am going to do in O's so that
i can choose exactly what course i want.
Am i going to do well?

Shortlisted some schools:
1. NAFA
2. Nanyang Polytechnic
3. Temasek Polytechnic

Shortlisted some courses:
1. Graphic /Advertising design.
2. Visual Communication
3. Any other courses that i fancy if my points
do not meet to the required points to the above courses.

I need to start working hard now!
I am,but not hard enough.
O levels is getting nearer and nearer and i doubt it will be easy.



Stop it?
Please and thank you.

I don't care whatever shit you want to do,asshole.
You fucker,you took advantage of me and now you want to complain?
I knew you were patient all along but i was too.
I can't seem to understand you!
You should know i was treating you like a friend all along.
You gave me time,but you did nothing to further help my decision.
That recent message was by my friend,i was not the one who sent it.
Before all of this,you should have taken care of me better.
This is afterall,your fault.

Okay,why the heck am i even explaining?
You already forgot the past.
Since you clear that for me,i would like to say thank you.
Because i forgot you a long time ago before you did.
So stop cranking and shut the fuck up.
I deleted your msn and everything.
I don't wish to see you or hear from you ever again.
& thats how harsh i can get.
Don't blame him for anything,i warn you,because if anything,it was me,i was the cause.
Hate me uh,i really don't care!

Is it me or do i look different in this picture?

WARNING:LONG POST

Spent 5 hours studying at home,eating and listening to songs.
I've been listening to old tunes,and find them more meaningful than the new ones.
Trying to memorise physics formulas,which is obviously hard because i have a bad memory.
There was alot of fucking formulas! I have no idea how the Pure science takers can handle it.
Mum's cooking spaghetti bolognaise today,me and brother's favorite!
She's sleeping right now and snoring loudly; she must be really tired.
Going to indulge myself with snacks (chocolates,crackers,ice creams) later.
Have spent alot of money on food these days.
Everyday,i spent about 10 bucks which is twice of how much i used to spend.
The weekend is ahead and i doubt i will go out since common tests are starting next week.
Some odd news was that the malay common test next week are PRELIM PAPERS?
Okay,i ought to panic right now and try to interest myself in Malay,which is soooo NOT gonna happen.
I will try my best,people,but its going to be hard.

I never scored well for my malay before.
All i got was C's & B4's.
I just need to get B3 for Prelims in order for me to be free,
and not to study or learn Malay Language in my whole life which is FANTASTIC!
This does not mean my other subjects results are good.
In fact,i am not a will-score-distinction-for-sure student.
I score mediocre in all subjects until i got tuition which was beneficial for awhile
until i found him irritating + his english was pretty bad.
Combined science and humans sucks.
I used to love science,in primary school,and ever wanted to become a scientist.
Oh,what a fantasy imagination that is.
I used to love exploring the nature, as Science was that simple in primary school.
But when i had to learn Kinematics,Chemical Bonding,Electricity & REDOX,
i completely changed my mind; Science is confusing and complicated,in actual fact!
Humans just sucks the crap out of me.
Geography especially,when you have to remember like a thousand words
& im not kidding.
E maths is kind of a bother,although i am able to cope with it,but sometimes,
i am slow.
I had to think real hard just to get the concept inside my brain.
I have to admit that as a person,i am slow.
Slow in my brain,mind,actions,everything.
Friends should know what i mean.
I don't like being slow.
Im not spontaneous!
When i tell stories to my friends,i will take a LONG time to do so.
I depend on this blog as my fingers are typing faster than my mind is.
Well,the subjects i like most is english and art.
I believe that this two subjects will benefit me most in my future.

Amalina, sorry for not going to WCP with you.
I fear i will melt my skin off me due to this hot weather.
Thanks for being there.

I MISS MUHAMMAD HAIKAL BIN SYED HUSSAIN!
AKU RINDU SEMUA TWOPIEKU YANG SENTIASA BERSAMAKU DAHULU!

Red bull makes me slightly better.
Don't wish to come to school tomorrow.

Why should i stay,anyway?
Its official,i have noone to depend on but myself right now.

Did you sleep on the wrong side?
I'm catching a bad vibe
And it's contagious, What's the latest?
Speak your heart, Don't bite your tongue
Don't get it twisted, Don't misuse it
What's your problem? Lets resolve
We can solve it, What's the causes?
It's official, You got issues I got issues,
but I know I miss you

Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Who should be blamed?
Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Who should be ashamed?
Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Will we remain?
You need a resolution, I need a resolution,
We need a resolution, We have so much confusion.

It is my fault.



But,sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Edit:

Nabil doesnt hate me THAT much anymore.
Yay.
Thanks,because of you,i'm not a loner anymore.
-_-

)':

I just don't wish to say anything.
Because i don't even know what to say?
I'm sorry,everybody.

People,control your anger!
I don't like seeing the tension between my friends even though its not THAT obvious.
Be patient,because patience is a virtue.

Saw class photo.
Everybody was super sexy!
And all grown up.
Even though 4e3 maybe childish in a way
but we seem to have grown up,alot.
Haha.

Love yourself before loving others.
Bye.

CUM i mean FUN FILLED DAY TODAY!

Today: Camwhore day + Crazy act cute day + Study day.
Thank you Amalina,Nadheera,Ain,Radiana,Yazlynn,Raudha,Fitri!
Indeed,i was pissed off during english class.
Stupid english lesson.

I'm watching "Kerana Cintaku Saerah" right now.
The story i favourited since secondary 2!
Anyway,out of random,i miss watching it with Syaza.
Syaza & family was the people who introduced it to me.
Hahaha.

Ain,i won't change my name to Porny Dopre!

I'm watching Harper's Island.
Indeed,its a weird show.
I think i will be addicted to all the killing.

I'm feeling sleepy.
Kinda ironic because i slept for about 12 hours yesterday + today.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
But i think every school day is important for a o level student like me.
I just hate school.

I did do physics homeworks today,but just a few pages.
There is still about a gazillion more to go.

I need panadol,i need sleep.
Goodnight.

p.s: macdonald book?
sweet sweet memories.

I feel different.
I'm no longer myself.
I feel obnoxious and self-centered.
I feel that i no longer care about people's feelings.
I criticize alot.
Im hatin' alot.
Why is it this way?
Its not that i want to,my heart just is filled with hatred.
Are there hidden conflicts which is actually unneccessary?
I need to change the way my heart,mind works.
I want to avoid any damage that may occur if i continue to be like this.

So from that,i want to say sorry,to you; the readers,if i've hurt you in any way.
I'm apologising publicly as i know i've hurt more than just one person.

Its a sunday and i do not want to study.
I want my knowledge level to be as dumb as it is.
For the common tests which are coming soon,
i just hope to pass all.
I really really want to AT LEAST pass my geography.
SO,i really really need to study hard & smart.
But im freaking lazy right now.
Plan for today:
Do physics only.

My multi-purpose file is with Yazlynn.
&#&*%#$@~!

I had a long deep sleep just now on the living room couch.
I woke up and found out it was so silent at home.
Then i realised it was a freaking saturday.
No,i can't deal with this loneliness/boredness/silence.
Next saturday,i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally must go out.

*OH MY GAWD,IM BORED!*

My day was great.
It was long and draggy though.
Had chemistry practical,which was fun,because i knew what to do.
Then,had social studies,which was fun too,because i knew what to do too.
Got 12/13 for the recent test~!
I swear i wasn't really prepared for the test previously.
Haha.
Then,malay.
Okay,malay was like *toot*.
Teacher had a long talk with another teacher regarding something i don't even know of.
What i find strange was that,he talked to her for like 45 mins!
That is like 3/4 of the lesson.
But,i liked it that way because i don't like malay.
After that,free period (from 11.15) all the way until the end of school!
Super awesome.
Me and gfs studied in the canteen till 2 plus.
Then went for a draggy 3 hour "clinic" remedial for weak malay students.
Only 9 students attended which was half of the actual amount.
Surprisingly,i was pleased by Cikgu Azizah's perfect delivery on the whole thing.
Her elaboration was easy enough for me to understand and i actually enjoyed malay class.
Hahahaa!
After that long wait for the class to be over,it did and met up with Raudhaa & Fitri which was
supposed to be the better malay students.
Went to lot one,watched 17 again at 7:20pm.
I cried watching the sexy-zac-efron movie.
Even though im not a big fan of his,i do find him sexy and undesirable.
It was a satisfying movie but Raudha seemed to oppose.
After that movie,Raudha went back to my place to stay over.
Im blogging while she's doing malay.
She said she will drill me MALAY tonight.
I do need help but i dont think i would be able to handle all the stress as i hate malay!
Ugh,i need to go.
Bye,united states of singapore.
(lame-.-)

I don't like people who blogs alot but their english sucks.
Anyway,school was boring today.
Raudha,Yazlynn,stay over at my house tomorrow?
:D

Mermaidy Banana-Peeling Shocked Hairylicious Pocong is looking at me.
Time to study.

Edit://

Check out my tumblelog,people.
I'm gonna post my quotes & pictures there.
I'll still blog here.
Bye.

Happy Birthday Heryady~!

Okay,at mac Bukit Batok with gfs.
The normal peeps + addition Syaza,Fatimah,Radiana.
We're supposed to be studying,but im blogging.
HAHA

Didn't touch my laptop and/or computer yesterday.
Studied maths,social studies and did art,as i promised Raudha & Fitri.
Thanks for concerning of my future.

I love yesterday.
It was a day full of crazy,horny and sexy antiques.
I repeat.
Crazy,horny and sexy.
REPEAT!
CRAZY,HORNY AND SEXY LAH!
repetitive -.-
Okay,i feel weird these days.
I just feel so active and excited,for nothing.
Well,maybe thats normal for a psychopath like me.

My friends and family are top priority (people) now.
But what really concerns me now are :
future common tests,prelims and O levels.
I swear its haunting me in my mind.
I need to relax,take a deep breath and study efficiently.
I'm studying more now,but not enough.

Will not post as much,readers.
Goodbye.

At Nadwiwah's house right now.

Okay,school's shitty.
Studied so hard yesterday (Geography),but none of the questions came up.
I was damn fed up and i was dissapointed like hell.
Okay,that pretty much sums up how my day in school was.
Oh yeah,nadd didn't come to school as she was "locked" at home.
Went to her house after school.
I edited Fitri's blog,since she asked me to.
I edited my own blog.
Okay,it may seem like im a narcissistic fool,but oh well.
Anything goes then.

Gotta go.
Boiboi.
^^

p.s : so be it,asshole.
i won't be your spare tyre.

I miss Bitchwhackos,suddenly.
Because they are the ones who had been accompanying my lonely weekends.
):

Im at my father's company office.
Super bored.
Went to town with family in the afternoon.
Ate Oyster Sauce noodles at Puncak (Far East)
Went to Heeren,bought myself a yakpak bag.
Shopx3.
Headed down to Yew Tee to find Sister's house again.
Searchx3.
Then went to office.

I thought of going back and meet up with people who asked me out.
But,unfortunately,family asked me to stay around a little longer.
I'm not going to be rebellious or defiant towards the family households now.
If mom asks me not to go out,i will not.
If dad says not to spend and save my money,i will.
I now understand why family always comes first.
Soon enough,i will have my own family.
& of course they will be my first priority batch of people in my life.

Okay,stop thinking about the future.
O level have not even started or ended.
Okay,whatever.
I'm bovine decreement-ing.

I don't like to boast or show off.
So stop showing off if its not even yours.
*Disgusted*

Bye.

Random picture.

I love Nadheera Ayam Crunchy Munchy Spongy mcm Spongebob.
Thanks for cheering me up.
(:

I can't stop blogging since im always on the net.
I watched Setan Kuburan just now.
The movie was created like 40 years ago?
Very old movie but not even scary.

Later going to search for a suitable house for sister in Yew Tee.
Okay,here's her plan.
She's going to sell the house in KL,buy a permanent house in Johor (Bungalow/Semi-D)
& buy a house in Singapore just for the ease of the after-labour of the new member of the family. Which is in September.
After her labour,she will rent out the whole house in Singapore and
head back to Johor and stay in the house.

After searching,will drop by at Nadd's house to take back my books and stationeries and everything.
Later we kiss under stars k?
Haha.

I had been studying Maths on Inequalities and Algebra.
Yay! 2 chapters finished!
I've yet to study combined science assesment book & humans.
Gonna start on chemistry after the 3rd chapter of maths.
I don't know how to study for humans,i swear!
Common tests are coming,and im extremely worried that i can't
score well for all of my subjects.

Yazlynn is wearing the same deodorant as me.
Strange that im saying this in my blog,but who cares.
Rexona Women Passion rocks!
I want to go shopping with Yazlynn..

Aqilah is missing in action.
I can't seem to contact her.
I hope you're okay,twin.
Think of yourself,before others,okay?
Stay happy always!

Raudha is busy at home,i don't even know what she's doing.
She's kinda ignorant towards me in msn or messages.
She says she loves the book i gave her
as it has a certain resemblance to what she is facing now.
SEKARANG BARU NAK BACER!
Hahaha.

Everyone's facing problems in their life right now.

Its raining heavily and i love the weather.
Perfect to laze around.

P.S : I can't decide on anything,justyet.

Thanks for the compliment,Anonymous.
(:

Hmm,im searching for a reason to go out.
I have one.Buy a new earpiece for my ipod
or wallet or clothes or whatever.
2 pies!Let's go out.
Fitri,Amalina,Nyna,Ain or whoever.
Can can can?
Please please please?
Mum says the mole on my left foot shows i love going out or
"kaki kuat merayap".
Hahaha, AGREED.

I can't help but to say sorry to everybody.
I feel guilty for whatever sins i did to my ex,friends,family and to whoever it may concern.
Imma bad bad girl.

Adam is cracking me up with his cute dance moves.
He's precious!

I want somebody to hug me when im feeling moody.
I want somebody to feel my pain when im angry.
I want somebody that i can tell anything and everything.
I want somebody to understand me as much as i understand that somebody.
I want somebody that i can lay my head on and watch the stars at night.
I want somebody that has all the time for me.
I want somebody to watch movies with,just that somebody and me.
I want somebody that can kiss me tenderly.
I need somebody.

I'm crying right now.
I just feel so lonely.

I have a brand new enemy at Yusof Ishak Secondary School.
I'm wanted for being a criminal of swear words.
If you really are so DARING to talk bad about me in your blog,
then why don't you confront me face 2 face without the help of anybody?
You even hid from me yesterday when i was shouting your name.
Can't you face the cold hard fact that nobody likes you and you're disliked by your seniors?
Most of my friends spammed your blog,not only me,you fucker.
I knew it,you're a pussy who don't even know how to protect yourself.
Asshole.

Here's my thank you's to my friends :

Thank you everybody for yesterday's dinner.
Thank you Aqilah & Hui Ying for walking all the way to the bustop just to fetch me.
Thank you Jiahui & Yi Ting for the cards.
Thank you Felix for dancing and laughing like a horse yesterday with me.
Thank you Asher for dancing like Usher last night.(IMAGINE!)

Thank you Yazlynn for the clothes and waiting patiently until i try one.
Thank you Fitri for interrupting me in macdonalds when i was waiting for someone.
Thank you Nadheera for accompanying me in art after school.
Thank you (inserts name) for the sarcasms & the chats.
Thank you (inserts name again) for telling me i had been the issue of "us".
Thank you Raudha for all the lame lame jokes.
Thank you Nyna for teaching me E maths and laughing at me at the same time.
Thank you Amalina for helping me reduce the damage of the "fight".
Thank you Radiana for laughing at all of my jokes.
Thank you Syaza for listening to all of my love stories.
Thank you Ain for being a horny bastard and laughing at every little thing.
Thank you Marissa for drawing on my lap "Marissa <3 Usmah" & "Usmah Sombeng".
Thank you Amira for being ganas (I still have not messaged you goodnight,weird.)
Thank you Hussain for smiling at me all the time in classes.
Thank you Kumar for asking me to draw his sketchbook and give him foolscap everytime.
Thank you Nasir for always making me trip with your fast "pergerakkan".
Thank you Khalifie for being such an ass during mother tongue.
Thank you Tiger for tapping me & acting as if you don'tknow anything.
Thank you Syafiq for being so lame in class with your weird sudden movements.
Thank you Huy for making me laugh at your accent (Hmm,very good,very nice)
Thank you Ping for your accent too which cracks all of us.
Thank you Kife for not minding me to hold your hand everytime.

I'm sorry if your name is not in there.
I'm also sorry if your "thank you" was a sarcastic one.
I'm bored. I want to go out today.
Good Friday to all people celebrating it! :D

Edit :

We should stop this but i will not concede defeat.
Since you insist that the fight goes on,then it shall.
You want to study?
I need to study.
Im facing fucking O levels.
So go away.

I feel like a stray cat.
Abandoned and lonely in this unfair world.
I need assistance.
I need a helping hand.

I had a great time today.

Thank you kawan2.

I am not scared.
You were the one who brought this subject in,asshole.

I'm bored,bored and BORED.
At Delifrance Bistro right now.
The whole family took the car and drived to BPP.
Me,brother,brother-in law are playing our laptops.
Hahaha.

Booooooooo.
Heryady taught me that "boooooo" shows something is lame.
Okay,i learnt something new today.
I told Haziq i missed his sec 2 nerd-ness.
He said he will get new specs soon and i'm happy for him.
Haha.
A guy named "Didie" is chatting with me now.
I don't know him at all.
He said i was in his msn contacts for months or even years,
I don't even realise it.(?)
I wish i can chat with Haikal more.
These days,he seems so busy with his games.
I don't wish to disturb him.
So yeah,this whole post is all about the guys.
Oooh,don't i sound obnoxious?
^^

I don't understand why some guys would mind if i put their names in my blog.
Whatever then.

2nd post

Went to Jalan Bahar with Brother,Sister,Brother-in-Law & Brother's Fiance.
It was already about 9 plus.
I was eating chilli crab instant noodles when they asked me to meet them downstairs.
Met them still with my noodles at hand.
Took the car and went to Jalan Bahar.
How daring were we? VERY.
Once at Jalan Bahar,we were deciding whether should we go on or not,
considering my sister is pregnant.
We went on,upon her approval.
Surprisingly,we were daring enough to go to a very ulu road INSIDE a chinese cemetery.
It was beside a crematorium.
The place was surreal as it seem like we were in a dream.
With all the mist and darkness and empty roads.
I swear,my neck hair at the back was standing.
U-turned and made our way back.
Me,being the "smart" one asked
"Where's the road leading to ahead?"
Brother,being the driver,went ahead to the road and beyond.
The journey was quite far and we were deep.
It was scaaaaaaaaaary.
U-turned again and went back straight.
Was too frightening.

Tomorrow there's school and im still wide awake.
I did no homework during the weekend and im proud.
Im proud for being a rebel and defiant.
Oh,speaking about that,i remember myself saying this;
"Ape siak kau, rebellious adoloscent?!?"

Isn't he lovely?

Sen-toh-sa outing with family was fantastic.
Picnic-ed beside the beach.
Got a perfect place to seat with a scenery and a shade.
Ate,played water,took pictures.
It rained later on.
Got in the car and roamed around the island.
There were alot of resorts and hotels there.
We were envious and wanted to stay at one of the villas!
Super duper awesome.

Anyway,i can't believe its a Sunday today.
I'm too tired to do any homework.
Ooooh yeah,i'm seriously hating school nowadays.

Today : Awesome & Tiring.

Went to school taking sister's car.
Met up with girl friends and went to maths class.
Did a hardcore fucked up 12 mark graph question.
Quickly went to Yazlynn's house and changed after that.
(Waudha,Yajelyn,Nadwiwah & Fitwee)
Sorry Aqilah if we left you,we were really in a rush!

Quickly make up one another.
Complained about each other's complexion due to the sun burns.
Then, we were off to Clarke Quay.
Met Jiahui,Jian Wei,Amanda & some others.
Walked to Bellini Grande.
Went inside and i was so excited.
It was my first time being in a club!
The atmosphere was great.
So yeah,screamed,shouted,screamed,shouted for LNT.
In the end,they got Merit.
Good job Lurve N Term!
You guys did your best & theres nothing to be ashamed of!
Congrats to Fantastics & Unique Fusion.
Anyway,there were alooooooot of hot guys.
Was a great experience,really.

Then,sat down by the Riverside.
Took pictures.
Thought of going Far East for dinner and so we went.
Before that,said goodbye to the LNT group members
and they said thanks for supporting them.
Actually,Alep was the one who said it,and i swore i melted.
Heehee.
Bus-ed to Far East.

Ate at Sakura.
Was satisfied by the service and price.
Got to know from Yazlynn i was wearing Alep's jacket.
No wonder it was super tight
&
No wonder i feel super sexy in it (!)
Walked around Far East.
Saw a super nice shocking turquoise & black skirt.
Saving up money to buy it.
After that, said goodbye to the others.(Rau,nad,fit)

Me & Yazlynn went to Wisma.
Thought of buying some nice undies and so went to cotton on body.
Saw Suhastri and she claimed i was very tall (?)
Went to Forever 21 and bought me a pair of nice earrings.
Walked to Heeren and window shopped.
Saw Erman,Haziq & Pravin but was unreactive.
Continued to window shop.
Went to Cineleisure and bought 3 donuts and a large big gulp.
Sat down at Taka stairs and ate them up.
Went to Somerset and bus-ed home while she met his brother to catch a movie.

I'm happy today.
But im dead tired.
Tomorrow,going to Sentosa with family.
Yaaaaaaaaay.

p.s: i don't hate you or you.

(Pose done to purposely tease someone else's,HAHAHA)

Sports day.
Not that excited about it at first,but ended up shouting and cheering for people.
So yeah yeah,they ran,i scream.
Congrats to all participants,especially the 4e3s.
There were alot of people who cried just now.
But i think i was the one who cried most and hardest.
I was heartbroken,somehow.
Anyhow,recovered and was okay.
I caused a scene,it wasnt on purpose.
I really didn't want to be the center of attention.
There was someone i was eyeing on.
Super hot,okay?!

Went off to Jurong Swimming with Gfs taking taxi.
We were like among the first few who got into the place.
There were alot of Yusoffians who went there too.
I had a great time being incredibly close with my friends.
(Yazlynn,Raudha,Nadheera)
Was with the normal acad guys.
I was caught in between the guys as they tussled with each other.
Without realising it,i got knocked on the head and plunged inside the pool.
It was a HARD knock.
Got out of the pool and realised it was Azlan who knocked his head onto mine.
He was rubbing his head like what i was doing to mine,it really hurts!
I got a bump on my head now,thank you.
Realised i've got sunburn all over my face,but not that serious though.
It made my nose really shiny,well,thats just most of it.
Then,went to JP to eat LJS.
Went back with Raudha taking 172.
The bus was a new one and it was really silent even
though already alot of people occupied the seats,at first.
Hahaha.

Got home,did art,chatted with someone.
Extremely rude.
Fuck off then.
Chatted with another person,and was happy.
Happy to see that someone at swimming complex just now too.
Then,went to esso with sister,brother and brother-in-law.
Bought 2 HL milk chocolate and drank it while on the way home in the car.
I'm happy now,at home.
Adam Nazraoul's way of saying my name makes me laugh and smile.
:)

Ooooooh...going to Bellini Grande tomorrow.
I can't wait.
Going home late,for sure!

PICS IN MULTIPLY!

Im sorry npcc mates,as i've dissapointed you guys.
I know it wasn't supposed to be like this,
it should have been a day of togetherness,unity and bonding for all of us.
Im just lazy and i give up in npcc,especially as i've been treated biasedly since sec 1.
its a waste of time having me to bring my full-u as its already all over the place.
I've lost my ranks,my burret and most importantly,i lost my pride.
I'm truly,very sorry who wants me to be there with you guys to make it "complete".
But i just really don't want to.

Good news :
Im selected as a finalist for my class.(speech)
Sister and family is back home in Singapore.
Adam Lambert has become my new boyfriend.
(AHHHHHHHHHHHHH,HOTTIE)
Bad news :
Someone despises me now.

I'm feeling pissed off.
&
I'm not ready for the worst.

Nobody knows about this,even my friends.
Don't even ask me whats it about.
I'm not ever in the mood to talk about this.

Good luck to friends who are participating for sports day tmr.
Going swimming,it had been a long time.
Yippee.

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know.

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes'
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

-Katy Perry,Thinking of you.

It's just a sad sad song,which had been playing in my mind like crazy.

Oh yeah,Happy April Fool's guys.
One prank by that certain someone.
Hahahaha.
&
Happy Birthday Ummarul Khalifie.
I know you don't want me to say this,but..
I missssssssss the old you.
Gendut dan cute.
^^

There's alot of things that had happened today.
I enjoyed my day very much.
Thank you,friends.
I love each and every one of you!

Things to accomplish by this week:

- Finish up the 9 art sketches.
-Somewhat think of what my final art composition is.
-Finish up half of the book "Busy Woman Seeks Wife"
-Do at least a portion of assesment books (ss/geog and phy/chem).
-Figure out what to wear this saturday.
-Ask father's manager for money (weekend).
-Buy stationeries.
-Do homework (if there's any)
-Go jogging.

Brother & Mother is talking about father right now.
All the conspiracies behind his luxury life in Indonesia with my stepmom,2 stepbrothers & 1 sister.
We want to confront him.
But we cant,even though we really want to.
Last time,found out he got "tangkal" in his bag.
Is this the cause of our silence at home whenever he's at home?
We hate dad.
Period.