Psycho

Aqilah's LJ is a laugh,
and definitely a great time to reminisce the past.

I miss Aqilah,whom had lesser friends,and more time to bond with me.
I miss Syaza,that gossipmonger,whom always shared everything with me.
I miss Syaza's family,whom said to treat her house as my 2nd home.
I miss Ain,the old Ain,who's more civilized and less horny than now.
I miss Fitri,whom always was there for me to support my every gossip.
I miss Felix,the guy friend that i've always depended and trusted on.

Geez,
things changed drastically,i can say.
I moved on,
and i still cant believe i can just forget my past,just like that.

I really dont,actually.
You guys were my "pillar of strength" - as Aqilah always says it.
You guys made me more and more better as days went by.
You guys educate me to be more mature in my actions.
You guys were the ones,who willingly followed me to the first 2 years of my life in secondary school.
You guys were my best friends.
And i appreciate every single moment of my time with you guys.
I wish us all the greatest things in life.
Thanks a billion.

Now,a new story unveals.
With my lovely 2-pies.

I miss going out with AmalinaEmpatSegi!

Look,boys,
girls are now categorised as "psychos".
more and more girls are.
take care of yourselves friends.
dont be too drama.
you know youve got
"me myself and i"

-random stuffs!

edit://

thanks for taking the time to meet me late at night ,
just to apologise.
im touched.
you never fail to cheer me up when im angry.
i sincerely love you.
& i cried coz i miss you.
<3

Currently indulging myself with Magnum's White Chocolate Ice Cream
at 11:30pm
Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

Its getting boring these few days.

I miss him.
):

First day of the week in school was okay.
Had another great day at school.
Thank you tupai-s & class mates for being great friends.
I can't help but to feel squiggly.
Squiggly?
Yeah,just plain weird...

Squigglishly weird.
o_O

Random pics again.


Good morning Singapore.
Happy 2 years,love.
(:

Maybe this is the long post for the day,since im wide awake now,at 1:12am.
Been chatty with Raudha,Hisbullah just now.
I can't sleep!

Yeah,i enjoyed batam very much.
I experienced the low standards of transporting,
and the high standards of living.
Well,dining was a mixture of both of them.
Maybe i got darker,caused by the long amount of time in the pool.
Sister asked me to jet ski but i was persistent of being reluctant.
I love the Batam trip.
It calmed down my senses magnificiently!

When i reached back home,there was an issue.
I don't know why the fuck you keep scolding me + intruding my privacy.
Its a small house,supposedly for me,YOU,brother.
Father is rarely at home.
So do you understand?Let me have my own space!
I need a time to cry,without you being so chaotic.
I know you mean well,but really,
UNDERSTAND A NEW-AGE ADOLESCENTS LIFE!

Today is my 2 years anni with Faliq.
Off & On's with him has been great.
Of course there were moments where we just
couldnt find a need to stay with each other.
But we knew,deep inside our hearts,we just couldnt
live without each other.
I would get jealous,he would get jealous.
The love story will never end.
We are getting more and more intrigued in knowing each other better,now.
And im glad that we're back together.

He sent me a long text just now.
You're a fantastic boyfie,dear.
I love you.
:D

Random pic

Crying~
Im being a fucked up kid at home again.
That's usual of you,Usmah.
You suck.
(:

3 words for the batam trip.

ADVENTUROUS.

yet

LUXURIOUS

and

FUN

Thats about it.
Pictures will soon be uploaded at multiply.
Go see it if you wanna know what i've experienced this 4 days.
I had an amazing time and i miss alot of people.
Tomorrow is my 2 years anni.
I cant wait!
HAPPY BDAY AMALINA EMPAT SEGI!!

Yesterday was the bomb.
I had a fantastical day with my friends and my love.
I dont have time to blog,for now.
But i love yesterday so much.

Im at vivo now,waiting for the ferry to arrive.
Im gonna miss everybody i know in Singapore.
Especially my special one,tupai-s and my hangouts.
Im gonnabe back by 27th January.

I love you people.

Aku sayangggggg Aqilah.
Thanks twinny for being such a great company today.
(:

I'm starting to dislike school.
Something just makes me want to stay at home.
Adam Nazraoul maybe?
He already learnt how to walk.
Wow,baby's first steps alone.
When will i get a moment like that, to see my own baby, walking.
Hehe.
& i've been complaining to people that i want to drive a car too.
Adulthood?

Wow,this is tooooo cool.
HAH
Fuck you and you labelling me as page 13.
Yah,free sex.
You want?
No replies at all,topping up my prepaid was a
WASTE OF MY PUSS-ING TIME!

"Parker" Pen as birthday present.

He was merajuk-ing

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER!~
May your business prosper fast
& may you have everlasting good health!

School is boring today.
I dont know why but i just feel that today is so unlucky?
My uniform's messed up,bag was freaking heavy and buses were late.
O level Art preparation sucks.
Im just so stressed up with such limited ideas.
Art teachers just isn't much help either.

Met up with love today.
Carried my heavy bag and whined all the way.
Thanks for helping me in my studies.
Thanks also for accompanying me.
You are really an addict now,32457
And for that page 13 thing,im sorry.
Its a last year thing,baby.
):

I don't care what they say,im in love with you.

Ive been very patient.
My heart hurts much.
Thanks.
For hurting me once again.

Today,boredom.
Just camwhored alot after school with friends,
Raudha & Nadd.
I almost lost my phone at the bus stop,
we managed to get it back.
Thank you Raudha,for running as fast as you can,
for the sake of my phoneee.
-.-

Well,i'm really tired of all this favourism thing.
Family,friends.
Ugh,i just wish people will treat everybody equally.
Well,i wish i could treat people equally myself,too.

Its been a day and im already missing him,
I can't imagine when i go batam.
I wanna meet you ASAP and
meet up with you as much as i can before going.
I Love You.

HANDPHONE PICS IN MULTIPLY

I had fun yesterday.
Can say its been the most tiring outing i've had in 2009.
Went back around 12 plus.

But i cherish my time yesterday the most with baby.
I love you to bits syg.
I keep thinking of you throughout the outing with my friends.
I know i can't depend on your love too much.
But you're just too addictive.
Some might say love is a drug.
But i never tasted drug before,but i got to feel love.
By my only one.
For all the 3 years being and separating with/from each other,
we had always been in contact with each other,
marah-marah sayang.
Yeah,those kinda things.
Hahahaha,
some memories still linger in my mind.
Good & Bad.

Well,outing with friends was gerekkk.
Went to City Hall,Bugis,Youth Park,Fort Canning,City Hall.
I wanna go out with them again,
and laugh like a pig.
Wheeeeeeee~
PICS ON MULTIPLY

p.s : i'm in a trance.

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Going with love had been fun.
All the gossips, past time memories, sweet talk, quizzes.
Hahahha.
Thank you for being such a sweetheart.
Stress level down from 120% to 20%
Im on cloud nineeeeee!
(HOMEWORK NOT DONE)

Blogging at 12:48 pm.
The day had just started so nicely.
I hope it will continue to be this way.
Tuition chem starts tmr again.
Ugh,i used to love science.
Now,i just want to keep the science books
in my bag forever.

I keep thinking about what i really
want to be when im successfully become an adult.
I aspire to be a Graphic Designer,and thats the course
i want to take,if i get into an arts school.
I want to get a Diploma,then a Degree.
That will be awesomeee.~

But really,art teacher keeps complaining that my art works are messy.
I AM MESSY.
But i want to do neat graphic designs.
I guess i'll find out soon,what my future holds,when i get my O level cert.
I just can't wait.

Im going with sweetheart later.
Maybe in the evening going out with Amalina?
:D

Today had been full of cries.
Okay,was late for school with Raudha,Kumar,Juhaira,Janaadan.
Came in later to school as to not get into trouble.
We successfully didnt.
Heh.

The classes were normal.
Then came PE,when Radiana,Amalina cried.
One was sick the other was angry?
Went to art and was informed Marissa fainted
& was sent to hospital?
Yazlynn,Nadd,Raudha and Aqilah went to KFC WM with me.
I now announce to call them "Tupai-s"
Lame,YAH. I KNOW.
But it kinda sound nice,right?
Sayang koranggggggggg.

Ate alot,felt guilty.
Walked back to school.
Yazlynn went back,nadd and raudha stayed at canteen,
me and Aqilah went to NAFA open house.
I love the experience.
It was soo cool.

Went to NPCC after that and then lepak-ed with Raudha,Nadd,Aqilah.
After "something" happened,
I cried so badly,so miserably,so long.
My eyes were puffed up.
Then,Aqilah started crying which i was clueless?
I tried my best to comfort her but she was persistent of not telling.
Then,Raudha started to cry,longer than my cry.

I then started to get emotional,again,and cry again!
HAHAHAH.
Nadd was there to comfort us all the way.
I love you babeh,and so to Aqilah,Raudha,Jiahui.
Heh.

I enjoyed today,got to see the downside of people.
I wished it could have been better,
which is if he went home with me.

Sorry people if i had not been the most comforting today.
Cheer up,yeah?
):

P.S: You know i love you,baby.

Pics found in my phone~
My lovely friends.
:D


The cold windy air blows pass us as we walk silently on the pathway.
It was as if we were meant to stay that way,for an unknown reason.
Hundreds killed,without people,even scientists know what about.
Didn't thought i knew of what was going to happen,for what will,
will shock us all.
Be aware,be prepared,be alarmed.


Im in jitters when i got that message from nadd.
Brrrgh.

I had a splendid time today in school.
Everybody was so joyful and full of happiness.
It was a blissful day today.
And i appreciate today,just with my friends.

Im going Batam on 24th - 27th.
Going to an hotel and stuffs just to relax and take my mind off things.
Im too stressed in Singapore,i need a vacation just before O's,
and this is the perfect time.
Amalina,im going to celebrate your bday asap when i get back okay?
Baby,dont miss me too much aite?
Yeah,friends too.
;D

I want to meet that certain someone soon.
People say that our relationship is just "wrong".
But i know where we stand.
(:

-Wow,i've never sounded so serene and pure in sicklapdance before.

Oh,how i wish he knows that im proud of being in a relationship with him.):

I CUT MY HAIR!~

I like E maths tuition but i really am not enjoying Chem tuition.
That was what i had after school.
Currently studying now.
Well,maybe not study,just planning for Art.
Oh yeah,had to rush home from school.
Thanks Raudha for being patient with me.
(:

Okay,school is a jerk.
Discipline master reprimanded me of my sitting posture.
He looked me through my eyes.
& i was like "damn,you're hot!"
Oooooooooooh...
Art stressed me much today.
Thought specifically of what i am going to do.
I already have a fantastic idea.
Only 3 of my friends know about it.
Heh.
Friends drop A MATHS.
Yay,you guys now can accompany me and the others.
THE DROPOUTS.
Wheeee.

I miss my family.
I miss my concerning,understanding mother,father,brother.
Almost all of our quarreling is about money.
Ugh,what kind of family unity is this?
):

I love all of my friends who treat me like best friends..
Coz they care for me the most.
Im sorry guys,if i dont pay much attention to your love life.
I will pay attention more soon,aite?
Is there something wrong with
MY love life?
Hmmm........

At Macdonald somewhere at Jurong East
with Aqilah,Raudha,Nadd,Faiz.
Playing internet,lepak-ing,chatting.
Bored giler.
Eh,girls.
I love korang empat laaaaaaa.
Heh.
Okay,sooooo acting cute.
Oh yeah,was acting cute with baby last night too.
I want to know everything that is on your mind,love.
Your worries,stress,troubles etc etc.
I care for you so much.
Today i was late for school with Raudha.
Studying sucks today.
Art O level paper received.
Preparing for it sounds scary.

Im missing baby so much right now.
):

Edited://
Oh yeah,went out with Amalina yesterday.
Thanks for going out with me,was bored FUCK at home.
syggggggg kau.
Took neo,i BLANJE.
Then eat LJS,mcm biaseeeee.
Went back.
Heeeeeeeeee.
TIMOTHY HAY,PUIK!

-____-



p.s : been spending alot of money these days.~

Everyone's complaining that their homework is not done.
I think i'll stay to my routine.
Do homework right after you get it,or asap.
I think it shows that it benefits alot this way.
Woke up and felt cranky.
Was hungry,was bored,was annoyed,was irritated.
I want to go out today.
But judging by the time now,i doubt so.
Been singing Katy Perry's-Hook Up today.
Aim is to remember the lyrics without lyrics.
Pretty much sang a lot of other LOVE songs at home. ):
Boredom oh boredom.
I am still cranky,i have eaten only
one orange throughout the whole pussy day.


Just give up the game,and get into me,
if you're looking for thrills and get cold feet.
Oh no,i do not hook up up,i go slow.

Okay,this is my 60th post in sicklapdance.

Ah,just a random thing.

Well,the day was awesome.
Details...well,briefly,this is what happened.

-He was 1 hour late and i got really pissed off.

-Met up and then went to VivoCity by taking 188.

-Walked around pageone (bookstore)

-Repetition of walking around the store. -.-

-Went to SkyPark & chatted & took pics & compared cameras. (I WANT THE PICTURES)

-He claimed i was hot without my specs. :D

-Grabbed a H-2-0 & took 188.

-He claimed i was hot wearing his specs. :D

-Talked about the past,people,secrets (love secrets to be exact)

-Bad mood a while then was okay after that.

-Went back.

Ooooooh yeah,
i do love you bie.
i really do.
forget the past,start anew.
(:

SQUEEEEEEEEZE!~Rabbit has been wild these days.
Gerraway,oh Gerraway~
I wish i can know why you are jumping
much in your cage.
):

Im feeling oddly bored right now.
Hmm,
i miss going out with tulangs.
Go out soon yeah,people?
i miss going out with aqilah,yazlynn,
it has been a long time,i swear.
i miss going out with the usuals.
Wanna play spin the bottle again?
Hahaha,so yeah.
I miss going out with alot of people.
But today im booked,
a date.
Or whatever.
Heh,super excited yaw!

I didnt go to Recruitment Day.
NPCC UNIFORM AT 6.30 AM IN SCHOOL?!
Hah,i woke up at 10++am
Felt better after yesterday's breakdown.

Tomolow ahku fur-ry.
Ahjak ahku keluwar ye kawankawan?
-.-

Had been foolishly moody these days.
I just don't know why.
Im lucky i have great friends around me.
I appreciate everything,guys.

Special thanks to Yazlynn for being a great friend and
im very sorry about the bruises.
I love you.

Okay,that was random.
I got pissed off alot of times during this week.
Especially with mom.
Tak abes2 marah for no reason.
Go for anger management,mom.
It will help you.
Ugh.
I WANT TO RUNAWAY FROM HOME.
THE WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY DONT UNDERSTAND ME.
"{>~@!&#*^$%

Today,was a day before recruitment day for cca.
I dont wish to come tmr.
I feel fucking moody.
I cried alot of times already.
Pfft.
Camwhored the whole day!
Had fun today.
Classes were draggy,
Cca was what the fuck~
Hanging out with friends was super fucking best.

I miss him,he didn't notice how long i waited
for his messages,his calls and everything.
Its just sad...


Edit://
I calmed down now.
Thanks Faliq,
i feel much better now after your so called advice.
See you tmr,yeah?
Weeeeeeeeeeweeet.
Goodnight diary.
PICS ARE ON MULTIPlY,PEOPLE~

Lala,Fafa,InIn,ChewChew,Nana,Rara,Yaya

HAHAHAHAHHA!~

Hello diary.
Yesterday,i cried like a pussy.
I swear,i love you nadd & raudha for being there for me.
Didnt know why i cried though.
Felt that i wanted to let it all out.
Was so stressed.
Im enjoying life,including school.
Didnt knew i would enjoy it though.

I have the most bestest friends @ school,
outing friends,
npcc mates,
family.
But most of all,i have the bestest boyfriend
who had always been there for me.
Thanks so much for the night calls,
msn chats,messages.
Ily baby.

Today,school was okay.
Had a 2 hour and 30 minute break in between school.
WAHAHAHA.
After school,i had npcc for awhile.
It was lame.
Me,Fitri and Aqilah were ignorant foobs
*copycat nadd*
heh.
Didnt do anything at all.
Instead,gelak ketawe with Rau & Nadd again.
I love all of them.
hehe.

Went back with him.
Im so sorry that you were tired and had to hantar me.
Thank you for sacrificing your time and energy for me.
Im indeed touched & i love you more.
Im glad you asked to go back with me,
cause i missed you so!

Raudha's Irritating Handwriting :
Yesterday went out with amalina,raudhaa and nadd.
We went to bontanic gardens.
Im tired of using the words "gerek" or "fun",
so i'll use best gilerr.
Okay,lame.
Amalina was hecka late.
Heh,i glad you came.
Took the bus and was off to bontan.
Nadd was iwwitating saying she had to go off
by 7 when we just reach there by 6 +.
-.-

Went on roaming around the place.
Romantic place actually.
Nice place for photography but too bad i
didnt get batteries before going there.
We lied down while taking pics, me and nadd
got a serious case of ant-biting-the-life-out-of-me.
SERIOUS.
Was itching like fuck.
Realised the ants had roamed all over my body.
Went to eat at long john lot one with raudha,amalina
while nadd went back.
Was great talking with them about some stuffs.
Amalina now knows about my secret. SHH,okay??
Bought a book called "Busy Woman Seeks Wife"
Went back taking 188 with Amalina and camwhore,ape lagi?
HEH,cinta kamu semua!

Before that went out with love,as i said earlier.
Kening naik naik turon turon* x5
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Look at what you've done,im missing you now...
:D

Today school was normal as usual.
Raudha was chatty and gila during ss class.
Didnt know why though.
Siao cow.
Nadd was asking people to carry her bag and being kecoh.
Art class was a bore.
Me & Ain went out and literally stole people things without them knowing.
Heh.
Mother tongue is like flattened tits.
I barely was awake.
Was separated from the good class and went in the bad.
Now,Rad & I are separated from the group hug people.
):
Now we have new group hug people,Amalina & Yazlynn.
YIPAA.

Was fucking angry with this certain someone.
Your fucking attitude sungguh tak perlu ehk.
I doubt you will ever find a girlfriend for yourself,
even though you HAVE the looks.
After school,hang out with the usuals.
Chattttttttttttttt Chatttttttttttttttt Chattttttttttttttt.
Haha.
Went home with Fitri.

Im super tired,tuition was stressful.
Im a drop out of A maths from now on.
I hate homework.
Especially malay homework.
Fuck malay homework.
Adam Nazraoul is gone.
KL family is gone.
);

Im going out later.
I went out just now.
Today is a day where
i know i was in love again.
But am i really?
Will i ever love again?

Mr Kanye West,Coldest Winter.

On lonely nights I start to fade (on lonely nights I start to fade)
Her love's a thousand miles away (her loves a thousand miles away)
Memories made in the Coldest Winter
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again?
Memories made in the coldest winter

It's 4 AM and I can't sleep (It's 4 AM and I can't sleep)
Her love is all that I can see (Her love is all that I can see)
Memories made in the coldest winter
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again?
Memories made in the coldest winter...

Winter...
Winter...

Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again?
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again?
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again?

It's rain can take the snow away (It's rain can take the snow away)
Can it melt away all our mistakes? (Can it melt away all our mistakes?)
Memories made in the coldest winter
Goodbye my friend
I won't ever love again

Lyrics from my most fav song off his debut album,
808's & heartbreak.

Today is a saturday.
I love saturdays.
Its just a great day for going out.
Okay,well well,i finished the book.
It had an happy ending,i wish my love life will too.
As you can see,i took alot of pics.
*hundreds more in multiply*
I went to Bird Park with mom,sis,bro-in-law,niece,nephew.
I was kinda in a bad mood cause i finished the book.
Now i can't find any theatrical romance story to relate
to mine.
It was the perfect place for photography.
I was surrounded by photographers all the time.
I wish i could be one of them some day.
(:
Found the man of my dreams.
He also suits the descriptions of the man in the book i read.
American,messy dark hair,blueish-grey eyes,well-built body,
and an amazing charm.
I took a pic of him,without him knowing.
He's just godly gorgeous:

The right one :D

The trip was fantabulous and it was mostly outdoor picture-taking for me.
Maybe going out with the usuals tmr after tuition.
Yeah,i'll call you guys "the usuals".

p.s : yes i outbursted and wasn't normal yesterday night.
sorry,dear.
ignore my previous post.