2nd post

Found this at my very very very very old blog.
Go figure.
;D

School was great.
I like art now,since i'm almost finished with my dotting art piece.
Took me days & now i need to do just 2 more sketches and i can think of my final artwork.
Cried at school,because i saw somebody.It just made me burst into tears.
Tore Nadheera's 10 dollar note;i put it in my bra.
How the hell did it get torn apart?
(I've been rather horny at school recently,what's wrong with me?!)
After school went to eat at Istimewa.
Ate Kway Teow Goreng and the uncle put loads of cabbage.
Fuck,it was totally unsatisfactory.
I really felt like eating Cereal Prawn,i'm craving for it still!

This Friday & Saturday i will be busy as a bumble bee.
I am thinking really hard how to plan my schedule :

Morning of Friday,its sports day at Clementi Stadium.
Then afternoon of Friday,head on to Jurong Swimming Complex.
The late afternoon of Friday,there's Passing Out Parade for NPCC.
Night of Friday,sleepover at school with NPCC squadmates.
Morning of Saturday,there's E maths Remedial.
Afternoon of Saturday,make my way to Danceworks Finals at Clarke Quay.

So yeah,i have to plan what to wear,what to bring etc etc.
I really feel like not going for any NPCC events anymore.
I swear this will be my last.
But,i can't wait for the other events above!
Hehehehe.

Hmm, i actually don't believe in tarot reading but i gave it a go as i saw a link to
http://astrology.com
The following is what i got out of it.
I really don't understand what it really means,but i think i do.
This thing is cool.

TAROT
"Choosing to be understood rather than exposed,you might resort to seduction,revenge
or abstinence,or let pride or prejudice keep you from being vulnerable and openly expressing
your desires or making a healthy love connection. This pattern or cycle of control, insecurity and
rejection, dangerous liasions or "buyers" remorse might continue to recreate some dissapointing
results more often than not."
&
HOROSCOPE
"Your ability to reason through your problems is greatly enhanced right now, so you should be
able to make a lot of progress, though someone's feelings might get bruised a little by tonight."

I also bought Seventeen magazine today.
So here's something random i found interesting.
This part of the mag,it made me wonder.
"Why must we lie when we are in a relationship?"

Is he lying to you?

"After dating my gf for three months,i lied and said i love her,but i really didn't.
I was hoping that if i said the words,then i'd start to feel that way.
She still thinks my feelings were much stronger than they truly were."

"I told my gf she was a good kisser,but she was really bad! She used more tongue
than i like,so her kisses were too wet. I felt bad telling the truth, so i avoided making out."

p.s : someone is actually entertaining me,since you're not that into me anymore.

Random school pictures.

I agree with Mdm Rosnah,
money is everything in this world today.
Alot of people seem to disagree with me.
Hmmm...

Im saving up money to buy a dress.
I want to buy alot of things/go shopping.
Anybody wanna accompany me?
Okay,i think i should stop talking about money already.
Talk about love?
Forget about it,seriously.

Edited some shyte.

Malay disrupts my life.
I want english and japanese to be my 1st and 2nd language.
Help me improve my malay just for this period,for O's!
Im definitely proud to be a malay,but i just hate its fucking language.
3 more orgy ass-ing comprehension.

As i thought,i couldn't sleep yesterday.
But,i wonder why i always wake up at 9 am.
Is my mind stationed to wake up at 9 am everyday?
Even during the holidays.
Hmm,i wonder.

I feel like shopping my way out of my problems.
Is it a good solution?
I need a new wallet and a go-out bag.
Mum disallows me to take out my money from my DBS.
I need it,mum.
):

edit:

Its raining heavily and im stuck at home.
Guess what? I finished 8 out of 9 of my malay homework!
There's just a portion more which i don't deem myself to finish.
I did 6 comprehensions from 11 am till now.
Go figure how many hours i took to do it.
I also am prepared for my speech.
Whenever i did my speech from sec one till now,people keep saying
i have a certain "slang" to how i pronounce the words.
Its not intentionally,i swear.
Maybe it was adapted when i was in primary school
(my cca is speech and drama)
I was performing everywhere.
Oh,how confident i was last time.
If only i had it now,for O levels.
I also finished my e maths homework.
I'm h-h-happy that i managed to accomplish alot of things on a Sunday,
the most draggiest and most mundane day of the week.
Hmm,im sedate right now.

I want to osculate/buss somebody right this very minute.
My lips are thick for a reason.
(random,very)

Good morning people,
its 1:15am.
I just want to say how i detest people who gives me high hopes.
It deeply hurt me.
Nadd,Aqilah, I want to become lesbians too.
Please? I can't deal with the pain.
Fuck boys.

I want to go boat quay and sit down by the river today,while doing homework.
I want to think back of all the mistakes i've done in life.
Tag anybody?

Went to watch Awang Belanga at MI with gfs.Freaking funny!
Its humor is crude and horny.So the tak-perlu.
After that,ate chicken chop & sushi & waffle hot dogs.
Raudha & I want to buy assesment books for O levels.
I wanna buy for Chemistry,Physics & Geography.
I'm bored now.
Oh,there is someone entertaining me.
;D

"Oh you don't love me the way that I love you
Cause if you did boy you would not do those things you do
You kill my heart just to see if I will rise
Above your anger and above your lies
And all I see of you
Is when you're not so busy
Oh you're not so busy
And you don't love me the way that I love you
Cause if you did boy you would not do the things you do
You turned my life around and for that i am glad
However much i love you this love is getting bad"

-You don't love me by The Kooks

It has a certain significance to what i'm feeling right now.

p.s: Happy Birthday dear sister!

Sports day heats

I feel lethargic than ever,even though i was not one of the runners.
I don't feel the energy to do anything.
I'm sick and tired of school.
I can't deny i did have a great day today.
Friends,especially the ones above,made me laugh and smile.
Thank you.

Anyway,good job to all runners.
I'll keep this post short and sweet.
I just can't concentrate in doing anything.
Why am i feeling this way?
Hmm..

I'll scream my hearts out to the name vaguely written on my index figure to show that i want something out of this.
& i definitely don't expect games.

Good evening dear readers.
Well,today,school was a drag.
I find it a bore and i felt it ended so late!
Ms Irma & Ms Tan had ideas for my final coursework art piece.
I can't wait till its confirmed.

After school,went straight to my house taking 985 with gfs.
Me & Raudha were making jokes in the bus,as usual.
Made my girls wait for me as i bathe.
After that,watched "Confessions of a Shopaholic" which comes out in cinemas today.
Brother bought it previously and gfs planned to watch it at my house when i told them.
Watched it halfway as we got bored because it was only half funny throughout half of the movie.
Lol.
Watched a funny malay movie instead.
It was really funny especially Alias Kadir's comical faces.
"CANTIK!"
-.-
Ate then we relaxed in my room.
I grabbed 6 hats from mother's room and each of us took one each.
There was this hat which isnt actually a hat.
HAHAHA.
Took pics with gf and kept exchanging our hats.
Then, laughed at my cuntface pictures in my computer.
Oh em gee,they were like so old and my edits were like wthell.
Then,tried to upload the pics and found that all were missing?!
Maybe someone deleted it accidentally.
Dissapointed,took self pictures.
Nadd,Raudha,Aqilah,Yazlynn & Fitri made my day.
Thank you.

My phone had been silent the whole day.

Very old picture.




Kinda old picture.

Nadd,i want to give a comment about your recent blog post.
Money may not buy love,but it can buy me happiness temporarily,even though im alone.
I find money really pleases me in a lot of ways.
I'm saying this,because i have never experienced luxury in my entire life.
I come in a very fucked up family who is trying very hard to earn a living.
Even though my dad has his own company,he has to pay like thousands of dollars
just for monthly rental alone. The economic recession really strike the hell to
my father's income as people just don't seem interested in buying furniture these days.
It frustrates all of my family members.

Father's always at Indonesia visiting her family or "work",
Mother's always coped up in her room doing her own thing,
Sister's at KL trying to make a living there which seems successful already
& Brother's working for my father and spends his time at work or with his fiance.
I am living in a 3-room flat with my mother and brother & i find it disturbing that
i don't have a father to depend on except regarding money issues. Other than that,
i find it hard to communicate with him after all i had been through of knowing how many fucked up step sisters/brothers i have.
I don't even feel farking comfortable sitting side-by-side with him.
I am grateful that my family is really bonding again.
But the trauma of my family breakup before this still lingers in my mind clearly.
All im saying is that i just wish you could see how much your father have done for your own benefits.
I can see he cares and loves you alot,you have a perfect family and you should be thankful to god.
If your family forbids you in doing alot of things,explain to them and be proactive for a change.

To all readers who had been having family problems these days,stay calm and be happy.
I hope you're studying hard for a bright future and being a loving parent when parenthood kicks in for us.


Main objective of writing all this shit down is to say:
I need money,now.

i'm not ashamed of telling people what i do have and don't have.
are you ashamed?

Went to wm and catched coming soon with gfs.
Super gore and violent,i tell ya.
Repetition of scenes which sends chills down my butt crack!
Well,yeah,it was kinda scary.
I liked the twist in the story.

I have no more money for the week.
Dad's away in Indonesia.
I'm dead.
:/

OH MY FUCKING GOAT GOATIES !

ITS MY MUMS BDAY TODAY !

& I TOTALLY FORGOT.

IM SUCH A PUSSY ( Y ) !

off to shop to buy her some chocs.
shit fuck!

Was reluctant to go to school at first as i had a bad bad sleep yesterday.
I rolled and twisted my body on my bed from 11 to about 1 plus!
Fortunately,i woke up fresh and early today.

First day of schooooooool~
Hmm...i still got language homeworks not done.
What a bother.
Im trying my very best to concentrate in both science classes.
In fact,i made an effort to listen attentively to all the teachers in every class.
HoorahHoorah!

I'm not contented,satisfied or pleased.
Life just sucks big time,for now.

p.s: I SUPER HATE YOUR SARCASM!

I'm strong and i accept criticism pretty much.
Even if the criticism is behind my back and silently,
i'll accept it and i try to improve.
Gradually,i'll show the world what my abilities are.
It may seem that im a pushover.
I'll make sure i don't stay that way forever as i know
it will affect my career,behaviour,character in the future.
I can't wait to work and be successful like all the other successful women out there.

I'm sorry for everything.
I think i'll be meeting you soon,to talk things out.
Please,if we do meet,
don't bombard questions at me,
i will get nervous and breakdown.
(:

I miss him wearing his specs.
He looks and is more decent back then.
):

I don't bother to continue my Art piece which seems impossible to finish
&
I don't bother to do Geography,because i don't even know what the fucking homework is.

I'm glad i finished up my other homeworks.
I'm getting new tuition soon.
Its a group tuition (about 3 people in a group)
I super need help in both my sciences.
Its the last day of holidays & i swear im fucked up!

"I need to go to the beach,
where the sand sweeps beneath my feet,
where the waves of the sea emits sounds which i love,indeed.
where me and my bittersweet, true love will finally meet.
oh,but now,all that junk seems like a piece of shit."

To conclude everything,
I just need to freaking relax,there had been alot of things i dealt with a blow.
I need a vacation to the Maldives.
(?)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

Nadd,Raudha,Felix came my house just now.
Prepared so much for "SOMEONE" but she didn't come.
We had a great time camwhoring and make up-ing each other.
We watched "Dumb & Dumber" & laughed our bones off! Haha.
Thanks for everything,friends.
:D

Never knew you would care about what some people will think.
Why can't everybody get their life of their own?!?
Fuck siak.

The previous message was sunnguh tak perlu,k nadd?

I hate you.
No doubt that you hurt me alot.
I thought we had it,i was just so foolish.
I know you don't sleep early.
Its hard to find true love.
& i give up on everything.
I hate my life,because of guys that don't treat me well.
Jerks.

Everybody's in my house,now.
Except for Yazlynn & Aqilah.
Where the fucking hell is Fitri Amalia?!
^^

yaw. nadd here. hellllllooooooooo?

Gerraway
had always been in mischief.
Tonight,he went roaming around the house.
Brother found him near the tv,sitting quietly.
He shouted "Adekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!"
I was bathing,so i didn't know what exactly happened.
I changed my clothes & as soon as i went out of the room,
i saw Gerraway running away from my Brother & Mum,
as they were trying to catch him.
-.-
I was laughing,while i catch him calmly and put him inside the cage.
I found out there was a missing tool to the cage which enables Gerraway
to get out easily.
Mum put this thing to secure the cage and voila.
Hahaha.
I love my pet rabbit.
He's super adorable.

^^

Okay,here's me acting sexy.
(???)
HAHA,soo not.
More like acting slutty than sexy.

Okay,today was boring.
Mum didnt allow me to go out because i went out alot of times this hols.
I watched a movie called "burn after reading".
It was a comedy thriller.
I swear it was funny!
The movie is about this two idiots who thought a irrelevant
source from a disc is top secret and one of them got himself killed,
just because he wanted to find out about the top secret which is actually
NOTHING.
Idiots,i tell ya.

I love Nadheera & Amalina,thanks for talking random with me at msn.
I was bored throughout the whole day.
Somebody called me for about an hour yesterday night.
You made me awake even though it was already 1+am!

Ooooh,i think it's going to be a routine thing.
Heeeeee.

Homeworks not done,by the way.
I swear i can't wait for O levels to be over.
Having to study everyday in school is a bore.
But i just drag the splitting-away-from-friends part after i graduate.
Boohoo
):

Richman ( Pervert Alert )
is calling again.
STOP HARASSING ME,YOU IDIOTIC MORON!!
Ummarul Khalifie & Arun Kumar Velu !
It is all your fault !!
hahahahahha.

Uh-oh,there's a holeeeeeeeee.


Fitri's bday and i went town with her.
We were seriously dissapointed by all the people who didn't go.
I wanted to make it her day & so i went.
We ate ayam penyet at lucky plaza.
Then,walked to Heeren and window shopped.
I want to buy a bag which costs 79 bucks,i guess i have to save money again.
Went to Cineleisure and bought donuts.
Ate at the seats along Orchard.
Searched for her family birthday cake,went to Taka.
Having unsatisfactory results,decided to go bpp to search for the cake.
Took 190.
Along the way,2 hot guys were sitting in the bus.
They went off the bus,and we sat at their seats.
Suddenly,they went back inside the bus.
They were searching frantically for a wallet through the crowd in the bus.
Asked us whether we have seen it.
I can see they were suspicious of us as they gave up the search and got down the bus.
Hoooootness.
Went to bpp,bought cake,camwhored,went back.
Thanks for accompanying me today,Fitri Amalia.
I love ya buddy.
:D
Fitri laughed at me the whole day because when i laugh,
i look funny because i have this ulcer on my gums near my upper front teeth
& it is excruciatingly painful.

I miss going out with Nadheera.):

I hope you are happy to see me happy.
It has been almost a month.
I don't think i'm able to take it any longer.
I'm just having fun in life.
I have no time to be in something serious.
I'm sorry,but i guess i wasn't patient enough.

I want to enjoy myself outside today.
Please go out,friends!~

I had a great night's sleep yesterday.
Thanks for repeating the word "busted".
(With your often sarcasms)
It was unintentional,i swear!
Hehehe,
^_^

Oh,please,look who's talking.

*Disgusted

Okay,here's a shoutout just for my 3 and a quarter years buddy.

FITRI AMALIA SALIM.

Happy early 16th birthday!
Farrera Dopre is always here for ya when you need me.
Thanks for being there when i needed somebody.
Even though we're of different class,i'm happy that i'm still bonding with you.
Although we may not be as close as last time,
i still love and care for you.
Remember,you're not alone in this world.
You've got my back in everything you intend to do.
Just decide things carefully and using your brains,please.
I wish you the best in everything.
Cheers,babeh!~